«Дар освобождения», курс 31 «Как сделать свой ум прекрасным местом», занятие 8

[Speaker 1]
Okay, good morning. Darchahar. Are you sleepy?

Body is here, mind went home already. Me too, me too. Let's do meditation.

Okay, let's do. Oh, I think first mandala's go. Sok Ten.

Are you here? Mandala. From Malaysia.

The big boss of Malaysia. Okay. Sakshi Bhunye Je She Me Toh Tram Rim Ram Ling Shi Ying De Geng Par Gyi Sang Gye Shin Tung Min Teh Ong Wa Gyi Drogon Nam Da Shin La Chok Pa So Yidam Guru Ratnam Mandala Khandi Atayami Sang Gye Chedam Tsog Kyi Chok Nam La Jang Chok Pa Duk Dak Gyi Gyap Suk Gyi Dak Gyi Chen Gye Gyin Pey So Nam Kyi

[Speaker 2]
Drog La Pen Ched Sang Gye Duk Pa Chok

[Speaker 1]
Sang Gye Chedam Tsog Kyi Chok Nam La Jang Chok Pa Duk Dak Gyi Gyap Suk Gyi Dak Gyi Chen Gye Gyin Pey So Nam Kyi Drog La Pen Ched Sang Gye Duk Pa Chok Sang Gye Chedam Tsog Kyi Chok Nam La Jang Chok Pa Duk Dak Gyi Gyap Suk Gyi Dak Gyi Chen Gye Gyin Pey So Nam Kyi Drog La Pen Ched Sang Gye Duk Pa Chok Thank you, Sok Ten.

Thank you for all your work all year. Okay, let's meditate. Cell phone off.

Cough. Okay, all the cough is finished? Okay, here we go.

Usually, oh by the way, if you want to record, it's okay. If you didn't have chance to make recording, please just use for yourself. And don't put on the WeChat, okay?

Okay, here we go. So usually, we will start with the breath. We will watch our breath.

But in the lion's dance, we start with the sound of something in the room. Could be refrigerator sound. Could be air conditioner sound.

Could be the sound of your family and your children in the room. In another room. So instead of fighting that sound, we will follow it.

And glue your mind to the sound. And this is a good beginning to focus your mind. In this room, we have the air conditioner sound.

Let's listen to that. And then we go to the sound of our heartbeat. If you're in a very quiet room, you can hear the heartbeat.

If you're in a very quiet room, you can hear the heartbeat. Inside of your ears. But when we're meditating in a group, I think it's easier to feel the heartbeat.

Now let's go inside the heart. More quiet place. And very beautiful, lots of sunlight.

Very comfortable meditation room. And the walls of the heart are beating around me. And now go deeper to the center of the heart.

It's like a room in the middle of the room. Still lots of sunlight. But it's more quiet.

And it feels the sound of the heart beating is far, far away. And now we put our mind in a single grain of sugar. Tiny single point in the heart.

It almost feels like it could get lost in the room. And when my mind goes inside, it's again a very elegant and beautiful sunlit meditation room. Now I'll expand my mind as wide as the ocean.

You can imagine standing on the beautiful beach here. And looking out at this beautiful ocean. And my mind becomes that ocean.

As wide as the whole world. And now let's add the whole sky. My mind is as wide as the sky and the ocean together.

Please remember to do the extra exhale. Then your chest won't get tight. And your breathing will be smooth.

At the end of the normal exhale, when the lungs pause, then push out a little more air. Don't force it. Just a little bit.

Now we'll turn the mind off. Like turning off a light. If thoughts come, then fight them and send them out of the mind.

Level eight. Turn off the mind. But when thoughts come to the mind, don't fight with them.

Don't connect with them. Just let them come and go. And stay very, very quiet.

So that's the warm-up of the meditation. It's like warming up our body before we run a race. It's not a real meditation.

Real meditation has to have an important object. The old Indian word for meditation, it means that the thing you focus on you will become that thing. So breath is good for preparing for meditation.

The heartbeat and the sea and the sky, these are good for relaxing the mind. But we don't want to become those things. So now we start the real meditation.

Choose one of the teachers in your life. Big, big teacher is your mother or father. Or you can choose a special school teacher.

The person who taught you your job. Could be your wife or husband. Has taught you a lot.

Your children teach you a lot. Could be historical teacher. Like Buddha or Maitreya.

We have lots of teachers. It's like we have a big drawer full of clothing. And when we start the meditation, it's like choosing what kind of pants do we want to wear today.

There are many choices. So choose one that feels good today. One of your teachers.

And ask them to come and sit with you. Knee to knee. Real person.

Not a picture. Not a statue. Living person.

Who loves you very much. They are looking at you. They are so proud you are meditating.

Okay, let's choose a teacher. Now let's think of one quality of this teacher that we really appreciate. Maybe they are very patient.

They never get upset. Maybe they have a very good meditation practice. Maybe they like to help old people and sick people.

Maybe they always have a positive attitude and friendly to everybody. So pick one quality. Now that quality is just like the pen.

Usually we think it's inside the teacher. And as we get to know the teacher, we begin to see the quality inside them. From the things they do or the things they say.

But if all things are like the pen, then that beautiful quality I see in my teacher isn't inside of them. They have it. They really have it.

And they are a very good teacher. Because they have it. But it's coming from me.

The reason I see it is because I did something good in the past. And when I did something good, I saw myself, I heard myself. And that seeing and that hearing myself planted the seed.

So let's go on an imaginary journey. A trip to our past life. Different country.

Different body. Could be male or female. Could be even a bird.

But in that past life, maybe hundreds of years ago, in another country, I did good things to other people. Happily. And I saw myself do these things.

And that seeing myself planted seeds. That's why I see my teacher now with this good quality. If I imagine what I did to plant those seeds, I'm actually planting more seeds to see this good quality in my teacher.

So let's have fun. Make a movie of your past life. Enjoy the movie.

Do many beautiful and inspiring things in your movie. You are the hero or the heroine of the movie. Make it beautiful.

Okay, we'll spend some time here. Then slowly come back to your teacher. Enjoy that good quality again.

But in a new way. With wisdom. Very aware that this is coming from myself.

Planted seeds. And very happy. If I'm good to other people, if I continue to plant these beautiful seeds which I planted in my past life, I can keep this teacher in my life.

And in many lifetimes, they will always have this beautiful quality. I don't have to be a perfect person. Everybody makes mistakes.

Everybody has bad days. But karma always grows. Small seeds make big trees.

If I just do a few good things to other people today, it will grow and grow. And I will always be around this beautiful teacher. And there's no teacher who doesn't come from me.

That was the big wrong idea of my whole life. I'm waiting for other people to be nice to me. I'm rejecting some people.

I'm choosing other people. Because I think some of them have good quality inside. But there's nothing inside of other people.

There's only what I see from my seeds. Then I asked that teacher, this is the most important thing you teach me. It's where my teacher comes from.

And it would be nice if you could stay with me all day. Then when I have trouble remembering where things come from, when I get upset or jealous, let me remember you and remember what you taught me. If you stay inside my heart, that would be nice all day.

Then I can always ask you for help. So please come to my heart. Then the teacher starts, they are very happy you asked.

And they're like, yeah, yeah, I'm happy to stay in your heart. And they, I'm glad that you asked me. And they start to rise up into the air.

And they get smaller and smaller. And they come to the top of your head. And they become as small as your thumbnail.

And they are facing the same direction as you. You can feel the warmth of their body on the tip of your head. And ask them to come down into your body.

They come down slowly down the jung ma, the central channel. It feels like warm honey coming down your spine. And then they stop inside your heart in that beautiful sunlit meditation room.

And they will stay there all day. And they are ready to give us help. That's why it's important to meditate at least a little bit every day.

Because you can bring someone to your heart who can help you all day. Because you can bring someone to your heart who can help you all day. Okay, let's come out of the meditation.

Go back to the mind, the turned off mind, level eight. Very quiet. No fighting my thoughts.

Let them go. And now some thoughts come up, just fight them a little bit. Then my mind becomes the blue sky and the blue sea.

Then the sea alone. Then I'm in the sugar crystal. Small elegant meditation room inside the sugar crystal.

Then I'm in the center of the heart. Very quiet inner meditation room. Then I'm in the heart and the heart is beating around me.

Then I'm in my body. I'm feeling the heartbeat in this room. Three long exhales.

We dedicate the good karma Meditation is a very, very great karma. Three long exhales. Each one is golden light.

Goes out to the world. Touches all people. Brings them happiness.

Brings them understanding where things are coming from. Three long exhales. You can slowly open your eyes.

Take a good stretch. Have something to drink. Ah.

We're going to need a microphone, Seiji, Nick. A couple of microphones. Any questions?

[Speaker 2]
Okay. Okay.

[Speaker 1]
Hi, Geshe-la, I have two questions. The first one is, in the first day you mentioned about my mind is also empty. So that means any thought I have, any decision I make, it's also decided by my seeds.

But also, previously you mentioned that we have freedom, we have free will to make decisions. So I'm a little bit confused. Okay, good question.

Let me answer the first question. We don't think about it. But if you think about it, someone's talking in your mind all day.

It's funny, we usually don't think about it. Sometimes it's good to watch this person talking in your mind. Like sometimes I'm very surprised.

Unpleasantly surprised. When I listen to that guy in my mind, he's complaining a lot. I don't say what I'm thinking, but the thinking sometimes is not very nice.

Then one day, I told my teacher, I think it's because of meditation. I started to listen to the person talking in my mind. I told him I'm a little bit shocked.

Sometimes he says very bad things. Then I said, am I a bad person? He said, no.

You are not the talker, you are the listener. You cannot talk and listen at the same time. My partner Veronica, she's always telling me that you cannot talk Geshe Michael and listen at the same time.

Sometimes you should stop talking and just listen to me. Then I'm like, oh, yeah, okay, okay. So, you cannot be the talker and the listener at the same time.

So, if you hear someone talking in your mind, it must be another person. And those are your seeds. Okay, so the seeds are opening.

I put seeds in my mind last week when I gave pen to Stanley. And I carried those seeds in my mind for one week. Then this morning I came to the class and I saw a pen on the table.

And that's coming out of those seeds which I planted last week. And what's interesting is the person talking in my mind is actually seeds. And the seeds are opening.

And out of the seed is coming talk. So my teacher said, don't worry Geshe Michael, you are not a bad person today. You were a bad person last week.

And you planted those seeds. And they are opening today. Now I'll tell you something very important.

I always teach the pen when I go anywhere. Tomorrow on the airplane, when I sit next to somebody, how are you? Where are you from?

Do you have family? Do you know about the pen? I always have pen in my pocket.

So, you know, someone complained to me in Singapore. But they were not from Singapore, okay? They're from Europe.

They came to me after the talk. Geshe-la, you're getting old. I said, why you say that?

You repeat yourself every year. You forgot. You taught this already.

You came to Singapore nine times. You taught the pen nine times. Then we pay money to come to hear you.

You should say something new. You know, then I'm like, get out of here. Why I teach the pen over and over.

In the Jin, it says, if you really understand the pen, then when you die, you cannot go down. Cannot go to hell. Cannot become animal.

Cannot become spirit. Impossible. The person who understands the pen, they get contract from Buddha.

Okay, no more hell for you. They sign. Buddha sign.

That's general explanation. If people complain to you, you teach the pen every year. Edmond, it's so boring.

Then you can tell them this is why I teach the pen. But, to be honest, to get that contract guarantee, the pen is not enough. You need to understand deeper that your own thoughts are coming from what you did last week.

You are not the talker in your mind. You are the listener. And those talking coming out of seeds, word by word coming out of seeds.

And this is really the core of me, of Michael. It's the talker and the listener. I'm not my finger.

I will lose my finger. I'm the talker in my mind and the listener in my mind. And that talker and that listener is coming from what I did last week.

If you understand that, that's the inner pen, then you get the guarantee. Everybody got it? Guarantee?

Okay? Got it? But that's not her question.

Her question is I want to become a better person, Geshe-la. Then last week, I said something bad to somebody. I planted a seed.

Then this week, when I listen to the person in my mind, of course they are saying something bad. Then how to change? You see, because the person today will say something bad and that talking in my mind will make a new bad seed in my mind.

How can I change? Do I have choice? Or is everything fate?

Can I change my direction? Or not? Okay?

The answer is I'll tell you a joke I heard in Europe, in Germany. Okay? Birgitta, you guys know this.

Uta, one German professor in the college, they were debating free will. Then finally he said, we have no choice. We must accept free will.

Understand? Okay, anyway. Why you have free will?

You have lived forever. And you will live forever. Actually you cannot kill the mind.

You can change the rental car. But you cannot kill the mind. So your mind has been from beginningless time.

And at some time, during endless time, someone will explain the pen to you. Okay? You will make small good seeds.

There is a famous story. A very bad man was born as a fly. And the fly's best food is a poopoo.

And that fly landed on the poopoo to have a nice dinner. Then came a big rainstorm. There was a flood.

The flood carried the poopoo. And the fly is riding on the poopoo. On the flood.

Then, whoa! Then the flood accidentally went around stupa. So that fly went around stupa.

Then he made some small good seeds by accident. Then later, because of that seed someone teach him the pen. Okay?

We all have some small accident good seeds. And then someone will teach us the pen. And then the direction, then the free will comes.

Strong free will. Then you can decide what seed you want to plant. Okay?

So, we have free will. We have. It also comes from seed.

Okay, thank you. Thank you very much. Let's let another person ask a question.

Geshe La's answer is too slow. I'm sorry. Hello, Geshe Michael.

Okay, thanks for your eight days teaching. I'm very grateful. I have a question.

All people have five paths you teach. Because we are not getting to see the emptiness directly. But in this life, we learn about the pen.

But I know the second path has many levels. So, in this life, I learn the pen. But I didn't reach that level which don't return.

Don't return. You know what I'm talking about. So, I...

Yeah. I go to the... For example, animal realm.

Is there any difference between the people who don't learn about the pen? If I get any chance to come back to a man's human realm. That's my question.

Okay. And the second question is... Oh, sorry.

Sorry. Just a little bit. If I learn the lion's dance every day.

But I only reach, for example, level four or something. Then I die. What happens?

Okay, good. Okay, thank you. You want to say your question in Chinese?

Okay. We all know that there are five paths in life. Geshe told us that the second path...

If we hear the pen, we won't reach the third path. But I also know that the second path has many levels. We must reach a higher level so that we won't return to the third path.

So, my question is... If I learn the pen in this life, will I still return to the first path? If I return to the first path, will I have any differences from other people who haven't learned the pen?

That's my first question. The second question is... If I learn the lion's dance every day, but I don't reach the ninth level, and I only reach level four, then I die.

What will happen to me? That's my question. Thank you, Michael.

Okay. Nick, after this I'm going to do three presentations. First one will be your team, your mixed nuts.

Second will be CSP, Pure Gold. And the third one will be DiEM. Okay?

So, be ready. Okay? In that order.

Okay. Okay, question. Yeah, there are four levels to the understanding of the pen.

Most important, there are two divisions. This lower division is called like physical objects. To understand this comes from me.

So, when you teach other people, don't start with the talking in the mind thing. Always start with the pen.

[Speaker 2]
Okay?

[Speaker 1]
Because it's easier to understand seed. You start from outer thing. Then, if you get a very smart group in Thailand, and on the last day you think they can go deeper, then teach them about the talking seed in the mind.

The first part is understanding the kong xin of the object. The second part is understanding the kong xin of the subject. And of these four levels, it's the third one where you get the guarantee.

And that should be understanding where is the thought coming from in my mind. So, if you reach this one, you cannot be born as an animal. You have Buddha guarantee.

And I think everyone in this room has it. Okay? So, we did a good job.

But what if I only went to the Singapore talk? Geshe-la taught the pen for the eighth time. And I'm not thinking about the pen, I'm thinking about how much money I pay and why he's teaching the pen again.

Then I didn't reach this one. Then, on the way home, I get a car accident. So, I heard the pen, but I didn't reach this one.

Then, possible, I will be born as an animal. So, is that guy's animal birth better than the animal birth of the person who got in the accident coming to the talk? Okay.

Oh, yeah, he's unbelievable better. They call basketball animal rebirth. Good translator, yeah.

Let's give him a hand. Many days. They are tired.

They are super tired. It's extremely difficult to translate live translation. Geshe-la can think about the coffee, but he cannot.

He has to focus. It's extremely exhausting. I used to do it for my teacher.

So, we have to thank all those translators. Catherine. Steve.

And other translators. Thank you. Cool.

So, yeah, basketball animal rebirth. It means bong bong. Good translation.

You will go down, and then you will die quickly and come back. Okay, we call basketball rebirth. That's a Buddha's word, not my word.

Okay, now, if I'm doing lion's dance meditation, the first eight levels are not meditation. Going like this, there's no Olympic medal for a warm-up. But it's better if you do a warm-up.

Now, his question is, if I'm doing a warm-up, and I turn off my mind, level eight, then there's an earthquake, and my house falls down, and I die. So, where will I go? My suggestion, don't spend a lot of time on the first eight parts.

Do them a little bit quickly. Then if there's an earthquake, you're already on level nine. No, just kidding.

In general, don't spend a lot of time on the first eight levels. Try to go directly to the ninth level. I mean, spend most of the meditation period on the ninth level.

And I think there's another seed that you can plant. Many people are doing those first eight levels, and they think this is meditation. They came to the class, Geshe-la, taught the first eight.

Then they went for pee-pee during level nine. They never heard level nine. Then they only do first eight level.

Like watching breath meditation. These are the people who went to pee-pee during level nine. They are just watching breath.

It will make you more calm, but it won't keep you out of the hell realms. It won't keep you out of the animal realm. For that, you must go to level nine.

You cannot become a Buddha with the first eight levels. So, every day, you know, I have to explain the eight levels. It takes me time.

But when you do it yourself, go a little bit quickly to level nine. If you do that for thirty days, and then on the thirtieth day there's an earthquake during level eight, the seed in your mind which is stronger is the teacher, and the past life. So, you would not be born in a useless place, because you spent a lot of time on level nine in the first twenty-nine days.

Okay, thank you. Okay, we'll start again. Maybe.

Okay, we're going to do some more lam rim. Here we go. So, there are very advanced practice.

We call secret practice. Diamond way. Vajrayana.

Like Amitabha. Like that, special practice. And there are special practice for the chi and the lung.

Secret practice. When you come to Diamond Mountain, like Earl, he did for three years. No talk.

Just do the secret practice. Okay, then one day somebody asked my teacher, what is the secret practice? And he said, that's secret.

He won't give an answer. But here the teacher said, there's a book secret practice and there's the automatic secret practice. In the book secret practice and the automatic secret practice.

And my teacher make us do both. So, he spent about 25 years teaching us secret practice. Jingang Yujia Mu.

Secret practice, like Jingang Yujia Mu. Like that, we have to memorize. Many hours.

That's a book secret practice. If you come to Diamond Mountain, people like Earl, people like Gyelse, who did the three year retreat, they also did about seven years of training. In the book secret practice.

So, if you go to Diamond Mountain, you can learn it. But the inside secret practice, I can teach you. Now.

Okay, and no, anybody can do. Okay, three parts. Number one, I'm tired of things going bad.

I'm tired of this body. I have to feed it. I have to poo-poo.

Then I have to feed it again. I have to poo-poo again. I have to feed it again.

I have to poo-poo again. And then inside there, I get sick. Each poo-poo, you get older.

It takes a chi to make poo-poo. Each time you make poo-poo, you lose some chi. Then sometime the chi finish.

And the poo-poo also finish. Then body die. Okay, it's strange to think, you know.

Even just pee-pee, we buy chi. Chi has to go here and push out. Then you get older.

So that's the first one. Three principles for inner automatic secret practice. Number one, I have to change this body.

I have to get a Buddha body before it's too late. That's the first one. Second one, everybody around me right now gave me milk from their breath in the past life.

So they are same as my mom. In this life. Then they also dying.

Their body also going to die. If it's not my mom, it's okay. But it's my mom.

My mom's dying. Then I have to take care of them. I want to take care of them.

How many No count. No count. Not just your city.

Not just your country. Not just your world. There's a story in India before Buddhism.

It's called Hito Padesha. We have to study it in Sanskrit class. Then there was a frog.

Frog. He lives in the well. He's a big frog.

He's very proud. I'm the biggest frog in this world. I'm really important person.

I'm biggest frog. Then he made friends with a crow. A crow will come to the small village well to drink some water.

Then the frog will talk to the crow. Why you drink water here? I'm a king of this well.

This whole world. I'm the king. You have to ask me if you drink water.

Then the crow is very wise. Say, okay, can I drink some water, king? Okay.

You can drink. Then they became friends. Then he's always talking about he's the big king of the well.

Finally, the crow got a little bit irritated. He said, you want to go for a ride? You can see the other part of the world.

Outside this well, there's a little bit. You can ride on my back. Put your hands around the crow's neck.

Hold tight. And I will fly. You can see something.

Then the frog said, okay, okay. Then the crow said, I have idea. If you are looking everywhere maybe you forget to hold on.

So, I suggest you close your eyes. Then frog said, okay, I will do. Then he hold the crow's neck.

And the crow fly. Crow said, don't open your eyes. Maybe you will fall down.

He took him to the beach in India. It's called Goa, right? Goa.

Like this, very similar to this beach. He put the frog on the beach. Then he said, I will count to three.

Then you open your eyes. And he put his face towards the ocean. Then the crow said, San.

San. San. San.

San San San San. San San San San. Then you open your eyes.

Then the frog said. Then his brain explode. He die.

This is old Indian story, they are always like that. I don't know why. The indian people like.

I think it's a sad story. But the second step, okay? First one, for automatic secret teaching.

Oh, I have to change this body. Then don't think like frog. In English we say, don't think small.

You know? Expand your mind. If this world has people, and if you go out at night, our retreat center is the most beautiful night sky in the world.

We are two hours from the nearest city. You can see like billion stars. If this world has ...

A Chinese guest came to our retreat center. They come from Shanghai. Shanghai, you can't see the sky even in the daytime.

Then they came, they saw the first night time. They are like a frog. Then they say, tomorrow also going to be.

Yeah, every day, every day. So, there are many worlds. Not just this one.

Then statistically, should be. This billion stars should be other worlds. So don't be like frog.

Don't think Shenzhen is the whole world. Or Los Angeles is the whole world. Or don't think this world is the only world.

When you see Kongxing directly, on that day, you will see all the worlds, and all the people. It's very fun. Okay, unbelievable.

It's fun to go to other country. I love to see other cities. Go to Ho Chi Minh.

See all interesting things. Beautiful people. Then you feel happy.

But imagine you can go to countless worlds. Countless beautiful people. Imagine you can do that.

So that's the second one. They all need to change their body. And you have to help them.

When you are a kid, when you are alone, I think all of us, I don't know, when you are about 10 years old or something, you will think, why I was born in this place, this country, this body, this world. Why was I born to my mom, and not to my friend's mom? Then only 10-year-old is intelligent enough to think about it.

Before that, you are too young. After that, you are too busy. 10-year-old can think philosophy.

Why did I come here? Then there is a reason. There are countless worlds.

Billions, billions, billions of people. They all have this mistake body. Mixed seed body.

I am alive. I have body. That's good.

I can go to Thailand. I can go to Bali. I am lucky.

But, this is also trouble. It's going to die. So, you have to think about many planets, many, many people.

On the day that you see kongshin directly, you will meet them, all the people on those other planets. You meet the Buddha, but you also meet all these people. Then you are like, that's the answer to the 10-year-old question.

That's why I came to this world. I am supposed to become Buddha. I am supposed to take care of billion, billion, billion planets.

That's my job. That's what I am supposed to do. And then each one of you, you have Buddha seed.

You were born with the Buddha seed. And your personal responsibility is to take care of billions of people. Right now, we have difficulty to take care of ourselves.

But if you see kongshin, your ability changes. And you will take care of billions of people. And you will help them change their body.

So, you have to hurry up, okay? Many people waiting for you. So, do your lion's dance every day.

Especially think about the kongshin of the teacher. Where does that good quality come from? Visit your past life.

Don't get nervous, okay? But work steady. Every day touch your meditation cushion.

Okay? Just touch it. Then if you don't meditate, you will feel so guilty.

Oh, I touched my meditation cushion, I didn't do meditation. When I touch it, all the Buddhas in the universe come. They are, wow, he's going to meditate.

My teacher come, looking at me. Oh, you're going to meditate. Then if you don't meditate, you feel so guilty.

Thousands of Buddha disappointed. Thousands of Buddha disappointed. It's like you invite someone to the movie.

You watch one minute, and you tell them to leave. Okay? So, just steady.

Little bit every day. Anatole has a naturally amazing body. He's a great yoga master.

Before that, he was a great wushu master. Really. So, don't get fight with him.

Okay? But I don't have this kind of body. When I was born, I look like basketball.

Now I'm little bit long basketball. Then I'm not athletic. But I do the yoga every day.

In my retarded way. Okay? And it's okay.

It's enough. Okay? So, try to do about five days a week.

Meditation. We are not great meditation master. Every day we make big stupid mistakes.

But just go every day to the cushion. Touch it. One thousand Buddhas will come.

Then you feel guilty if you don't do meditation. You waste the Buddha's time. Okay, that's the second one.

First one. Automatic secret teaching. I want to change my body.

Number two. I have to change everybody's body. Everybody's body.

I have to change. Because they gave me milk. Okay?

You cannot ignore your mother. After they give you milk, it's your responsibility to help them change the body. Okay, then the third part.

How will I get this ability? How can I develop this ability? Lion's dance.

Part nine. Think about kongshin. That's all.

Just do that. And you will wake up your Buddhahood. Okay?

Cool? Then, you know, you can ring a bell. You can do the mantra.

You can do all this thing. Secret practice. But if you don't have those three, it doesn't work.

Okay? It's like Tesla car without a battery. Okay?

Looks good. Doesn't work. Okay?

It's better to do the opposite. Get those three. Then everything become secret teaching.

Automatic. I'll tell you the structure of the secret teaching. Whole structure.

It's very beautiful. Very, very nice. It's the best thing in my life.

Two parts. First one. Try to contact Buddha.

In Christian, they call angel. Try to contact angel. Learn to talk to Buddha, or learn to talk to angel directly.

Where is the angel? This is a normal person. Where is the angel?

Nine. Some angel answer the question. Yeah.

It's everybody. But you have to change your seed. Okay, that's all.

You don't have to go to other planet. Amitabha's paradise is in Thailand. In the Dussehtani Hotel.

Okay? Understand? Just make the seed.

You don't have to go anywhere. So that's the first level. Make contact.

Learn to talk to angel. That's a secret teaching. Second.

Second level. After you make contact, they will teach you how to be like them. Okay?

They will teach you. This is called kherim and dzogrim. What do you call kherim?

Creation. Creation. First level called creation.

Second level called completion. And all the secret teaching in these two. Creation means make contact with those angels.

Second one, they will teach you how to be like them. Okay? And you can change your body in one lifetime.

Okay, cool? All right. SEMS NA'AM ZHIG NAS MTHONG MA'ANG I just wanted some information.

Okay, we did that already. We reached a very big section in the Lam Rim. It took eight years.

Now we reached the important section. THAR PAR BGROD PA'I LAM GYUR RANG BZHIN BRTAN LA APA How do I reach Buddhahood? What's the path?

Everything up to here is kind of like preparation. So, how do I reach Buddhahood? And before you reach Buddhahood, you have to reach what?

Nirvana. Okay, not the same thing. Many people make this mistake.

First you reach Nirvana. Then you reach Buddhahood. Now, I taught you the two husbands.

The husband called the wife Phan Thong. Then the wife went to Thailand. She didn't fall asleep in the class.

She heard all the pen every day. Then when she went home, the husband went, Then she felt, you know you feel something come here, right? Then you want to say something.

I'm not Phan Thong, you're Phan Thong. But she went to the Thailand retreat. She didn't sleep in the class.

So, husband say, when she get home, say, Phan Thong. Then came that, like this, fire, right? We all have it, we all know that.

I also have. Come, this one. Come first.

Then after one second, this move, you know. Then between here, you have to stop it. Okay.

He will say, you're Phan Thong. You are Phan Thong. This one go.

Then that chi come to the mouth. I'm not Phan Thong, you're Phan Thong. You have to stop the chi here.

You ready? You're Phan Thong. Okay, understand?

Okay. Oh, he come from me. Now, I'll show you nirpan.

You're Phan Thong. Slow motion, okay? Ready?

You're Phan Thong. Okay? That's nirpan.

That's nirvana. Okay? So, it's possible.

Nirvana means you stop your mouth. Later, this one. You're Phan Thong.

Okay, that's nirpan. When you can stop it here. Okay?

When you get a habit, you're very like wushu master. Okay? That's nirpan.

You don't change your body. You don't look different. There's a lower Buddhist school.

They say when you reach nirpan, you disappear. Okay, not correct. It's a lower school.

Or your mind stop. Don't think like that. Okay?

You look the same. Probably your face is more beautiful. Because you never get angry.

Now, Buddha said interesting thing. There are many, many books in the world how to have a good marriage. If you want to make good money, write a book about how to have a good marriage.

Because everybody needs it. Every married person needs it. They will teach you many things.

When the husband call you Phan Thong, breathe deep. You know. Count to ten.

This is Phan Thong. There are many thousand methods. Buddha said none of them work.

Okay, they work for a few minutes. Then you get angry. Okay, the only one that works if you understand the husband who say Phan Thong was never there.

Okay, I'll tell you a story. Then you'll understand. So, nineteen years, I work in the diamond business.

Then, I'm a monk. I have to live in the monastery. My company said, we will give you an apartment in New York.

I said, I cannot. I have to go back to the monastery every night. It's about two hours drive, you know.

I have to go back every night. Then they said, later they said, okay, we give you a helicopter. Really.

They offer me helicopter. Not to buy the helicopter, but to use the helicopter. Then I said, no, I don't want.

Actually, I do my meditation on the bus, so I like it. I said, no, I will take the bus. Then, but I'm tired.

It's about four hours to go and come back. And I did for nineteen years. Then it's difficult, and I'm tired.

So, five days a week, I don't sleep enough. Then, Saturday, Sunday, I will sleep until noon. Maybe your life is the same, I don't know.

But Saturday, all the monks know, don't knock on Geshe-la's door until twelve o'clock. They will make a nice breakfast for me, called twelve o'clock breakfast, on Saturday. So, usually every morning, I get up around five o'clock.

I have to get ready. And, I don't know, if you work for the same company for many years, you put the alarm clock. You will wake up one minute before the alarm clock.

Wake up. You don't have to open your eyes. You just stop the alarm clock.

Then get up. Go in the shower. Take the shower.

Then maybe during the shower, your eyes will open. Then get ready. Go to work.

Then, it's automatic. Sometimes on Saturday, I will forget it's a Saturday. Five o'clock.

Go to shower. Take a shower. You know?

Then the shower wakes me up. Oh, it's a Saturday! Go back to bed.

All wet. Just get back into bed. Sleep until twelve.

Then, I live, my monastery is in cold place. I don't know if you have the winter picture of the temple in New Jersey. Very cold place in the winter.

Then, I have a special socks. At that time I don't have any money. I have one good pair of socks.

Then I will get up twelve o'clock. Put on the special socks. Go to the bathroom.

Water! There's the temple. Beautiful.

Then, Mongolian. Then, there's a house behind. Then, I will step in the water.

I'm like, god damn! Water everywhere. On the floor.

Those stupid monks. They don't know how to close the door. Then, I will go to the twelve o'clock breakfast.

Okay, who took a shower this morning? Then, I will ask them, who took a shower this morning? There's about eight monks.

Then, they say, no, not me. Second one, you took a shower. No, not me.

Third one, I know he didn't take a shower. He's Mongolian. His policy never take shower in the winter.

Never. In the spring, he smells unbelievable. I know it's not him.

Then, you guys know Jampa? Very nice monk. Very sweet.

Never say bad things. Then, I say, Jampa, did you take a shower? No, but you did.

Then, I'm like, oh my god. I took a shower. I put the water on the floor myself.

Then, the person that I'm angry at suddenly disappeared. Okay, understand? We never blame ourselves.

Geshe-la's stupid. Put the water on the floor. What's wrong with you?

We always forgive ourselves. Oh, it's okay, Geshe-la. You work so hard.

And you woke up. You didn't know. Put the water on the floor.

A little water is okay. Then, the person I'm angry at just disappeared. That's kong xin.

Okay? When the husband call you stupid, who put the water on the floor? Yeah, myself.

Then, anger go. Buddha said this is the only way that a human being can stop anger. Permanently.

Understand the other person you are angry at doesn't exist. Cannot exist. Then, the anger has no nothing to be angry at.

Then, your anger will stop. Permanently. That's nirvana.

That's nirvana. Okay? How to know a person reach nirvana?

When I was a kid, we have four brothers. We call the big guys and the little guys. I stay with my older brother and my two younger brothers sleep together.

Same room. We call big guys and little guys. Two and two.

And we hang out together. Then, why did my mother have two more babies? I'm this one.

Why did my mother have two more babies after me? Just to make me angry. Okay?

This is their full-time job to make me angry. And they are very good at this. They can do many ways.

Many, many ways. Many, many ways. And strange, they like to make me angry.

You know? They will do something. Then, they see if I get angry.

If I don't get angry, they have to think of a new way. You know? They will break something.

Then, finally, I'll get angry. Next. I got you angry!

Your mind is the same. Your mind is the same. Your mind wants to make you angry.

And your mind will try a hundred different ways to make you angry. And can do. If you don't understand kung shing, the mind will make you angry.

Okay? That's nirpan. So, what's a Buddhahood?

Buddhahood is when you change your body. You get a special body. You can help a billion people at the same time.

Nirpan, nobody can make you angry. Buddha, your body changed. You can go to a billion worlds at the same time.

Okay. You want to take a ... We have about 45 more minutes.

We can take a small break, or I can just keep going. What do you like? Keep going?

Okay, if you need a break, just go. If you have a pee-pee problem, just go. If you step in some water in the toilet, if you step in some water in the bathroom, don't forget who put it there.

Okay. Did I mess up? Are we okay?

You okay? Jasmine, okay? Huh?

Okay? Okay. Okay.

Alright. My boss said, okay.

[Speaker 2]
Okay.

[Speaker 1]
Dambala Sum. So, finally, we reached the section in the Lam Rim. After eight years, what's the actual path?

What can I do? Then Dambala Sum. There are three parts to the path.

Number one. Our trouble comes from anger and other emotions. Okay, bad emotions.

All the trouble comes from that. So, we should study them. We should study how does anger work.

You know, when I get angry, how does it start? You know, in my heart. How does it start?

How does it grow? How does it live here? How does it stay?

Okay, we should study our enemy. Okay, who's that art of war? Who wrote that?

Yeah, he said, know your enemy. Okay, study your enemy first. Anger.

Second part. How to stop it. How to stop it.

And then, number three. How does the anger cause your body to die? Okay, how does that emotion make your body to die?

Okay, so we're going to do these three subjects. Here and Bali. And Bali.

And Bali. And I hope Hawaii. Okay, we'll see if we make enough seeds.

Okay, first part. Study those negative emotions. There's four parts, four steps.

Number one. Let's identify all the negative emotions. There are six.

Okay, there are six big enemies. Number six. There are five kinds.

So, ten enemies. Mainly ten enemies. Let's study them.

Okay, let's study anger. Let's study jealousy. Let's study desire.

Let's learn what their face looks like so we can shoot them. Okay? That's the first part.

Second part. How did they start in my heart? What's the steps that I get angry?

In the first moment. Second moment. Third moment.

Fourth moment. How does anger get strong? That's the second subject.

Third one. Who is their mother? Okay?

Who created them? Where did they come from? Can I stop that part?

And then number four. What will happen to me if I don't fight with these enemies? If I don't.

What will happen to me if I don't fight them? Up to now, they are living in the country of my mind. They control my mind.

If I get angry, all my good thoughts have to stop. It's like this enemy controls the whole country called Michael's mind. Since I was young, they live here and they control this country.

So, what will happen if I don't fight? It's like other country attack your country. Like in World War II.

Japan attack America. China and America. Japan take over China.

Then our anger desire they took over when we were born. It's not their country. But they control.

How to kick them out? And if you don't kick them out, what will happen in this country? Okay, cool?

Alright, alright. Those are four steps. Number one.

What those guys look like? If they say kick these soldiers out of Shanghai, you should know, don't shoot the wrong one. Then how did they get here?

Then, you know, what caused them? And if I don't kick them out, what will happen to my country? Okay?

These four. Like a war. It's like a war.

,KHUN BYUNG KHO BA'I, ,'JU RING BSAM PA'I, ,SA CHAD KYI, ,SA CHAD NGA MA YANG, ,JA BA DANG, ,PHYI MA BYA BA'I, ,LUG NYID YOD PA LAS, ,DER NI DE NYUR GYI PHYI, ,ZUL LTAR THAR PA DROD PA'I, ,LAM GYI RANG BZHIN BRTEN LA, ,'OD PA'I LAM DU MAN DU YOD PA YIN LA, There's two ways to teach these four subjects, and he's going to do it the second way, and I'm not going to talk about it yet. ,'KHOR BA SNGAR, ,KHOR BA PHYI DANG, ,SO SO NYID MIG BSAM PA'I, ,KHOR BA LA YIN BYUNG STE, ,DANG LUS SKYE BA NA, ,DE LTAR KHOR BA'I RGYU, ,GANG GI PHYED DUG NYAM DU RGYU, ,TSE PHYED NAS NGO SHES PA PHYED NI, ,DE RGYUN BCUG RGYU, We have to identify them, and we have to find out where they came from. It's like foreign army took over your city.

If you want to fight them, you should know what they look like. Don't shoot the wrong people. ,DE NA KUN BYUNG LA LAS KYI KUN BYUNG DANG, ,NYON MONGS PA'I KUN BYUNG GNYIS, So, let's study the enemy.

There are two armies. The enemy has two armies. One, my bad seeds.

My bad seeds. One, my bad seeds. Second, the bad feeling that creates those bad seeds.

In my mind. Like those six enemies. How many?

Six. And this one has five. So, ten.

Okay, cool. ,NYON MONGS PA'I KUN PO'I KHUR DU MTHOG DGOS PA DE LAS KYI, ,TSE ZHING LAS DE NYON MONGS PA'I KHYAD, Why we have this kind of body which will die? It comes from both of those enemies.

It comes from both of those enemies. Number one, my bad seeds. Number two, the bad feeling I have which creates those bad seeds.

So, the enemy has two parts. We have to fight both of them. ngar sak gi le, tra may yu kyang, tsen chi che kye, nyum mongpay se len me na, len da drel way sabang shin, now this is very important.

We have countless bad seeds from past life. Okay, do we have any good seeds? Yeah, what's proof?

We're here! Yeah, good. Okay, I have ears.

I have eyes. You know, I'm in Thailand. I'm listening to Lam Rim.

Are you special? There's a seven billion people who need to change their body. Only 500 are here.

Okay, so nowadays in the world, people will say, you know, Geshe-la, I'm depressed. Why? I'm a little bit fat, and I'm also bald.

So, I wish I had more hair. I wish I look like Anatole. But, you know, I'm a little bit depressed.

I'm not beautiful like other people here. I'm just kind of a normal person. I feel like normal person.

I'll tell you a story. I'm sorry, but it's a good story. So, there are two most famous doctors in West China.

Traditional doctors. One of them came to New York. Then I was his translator for several years.

And it was a great honor. I learned a lot, you know. I remember ...

then medical translation is difficult. Traditional medicine. There are many words I don't know.

Then I learned a lot. One word comes from India called guya. Guya.

From India, sorry. Did I say India? Yeah.

Yeah. Sanskrit. Then he said, if the patient has guya problem, you should give them this herb.

Then I'm like, I don't know what's a guya. He said, guya is guya. I'm like, bro, I don't know what's guya.

He said, okay, just say guya for now. I said, if you have guya problem. Then later, one very wealthy woman invited him to her apartment in New York.

She's a little bit like 60 years old. Very elegant, you know. She's like wearing gold clothes.

We went to treat her. I was the translator. Then he said, he checked, you know, they do this thing, you know.

Three fingers here, on three different jing. He showed me what, there's a many fluttering pulse, and rushing pulse. Then he said, he told her, I need to check more.

She said, okay, what do I have to do? Go peepee, right now. In the glass.

Then she's very rich. In the glass? Yeah, yeah, in the glass.

Then she's like, you know, she went in the bathroom. It's very quiet. Then she come out.

She's very embarrassed, you know. She's got this glass, you know. Then, me and the doctor are like, hmm.

Very interesting. They use chopsticks. They will go like this, you know, and check how many bubbles, you know.

No, not like that. Then he goes, wow! I said, what?

She got gu ya. Look, this is gu ya. Then, she's like, she doesn't want to show her peepee, you know.

He's so happy. This is like, real gu ya. To translate for him, it's very fun.

Then he will take question and answer. We gave teaching to like, hundred people. Then, somebody asked him, in traditional medicine, what's the cause of cancer?

You know, how can we stop cancer? What helps cancer to grow? Then he said, you know, your lifestyle.

We were in New York. He said, oh, your lifestyle is a problem. The food you eat, processed food, and especially the chemical which they put in the food, to keep it from getting old.

Like, why does watermelon stay in the store for three months and doesn't get old? There's a many chemical on it, you know. So, he said, you are giving yourself cancer.

And another condition which is dangerous, you are driving all these cars. You know, I said, oh, is it the exhaust pollution? No, no.

Not that. It's the tires. You have to buy new tire every year.

He said, why you have to buy new tire every year? They wear out. He said, where does the rubber go which wears off the tires?

You know, hundred million cars. That rubber goes into the air. In your city, you are all breathing rubber.

Rubber causes cancer. He said, that's what's going on, you know. These are the condition cancer.

Then he said, later he said, anybody have question? One guy raised his hand. So, you said what caused cancer is the food and the air in our city, New York.

Yeah. Then, what normal people, what are we supposed to do? You know, what are we supposed to do?

We should stop breathing? We should stop eating? You know, what are we supposed to do if this is the cause of cancer?

Then he said, I didn't say it was the cause of cancer. I said it was the condition. It helped the cancer grow.

He got a little angry at me. I'm translator, right? I never said it was the cause of cancer.

I said it was the condition for cancer. Then I'm confused, you know. Well, what's the cause of cancer?

Cause of cancer is easy. You don't love other people in New York. You are not Bodhisattva.

You are not thinking like Bodhisattva. Of course, that's the cause of cancer. This other thing just helped the cancer.

You don't love each other. That's the problem. That caused the cancer.

Then I'm like, wow. He's supposed to be just a doctor. I'm like, wow.

Then he's got a little bit angry. Then he's like, also, you said another bad thing. He's like, what?

What? You said, what are normal people supposed to do? You know?

What are normal people supposed to do? Don't call yourself normal. You are not normal.

Okay? Seven billion people in the world. Today you heard the word Bodhisattva.

Don't call yourself normal. You are not normal person. You are special.

You are special person. Today you heard the word Bodhisattva. He got angry.

Don't call yourself normal. Today you heard the word special. You must be special person.

You must have special karma to be in Thailand. Okay? Understand?

Okay, cool. So, there's two divisions. Cause and condition.

Cause and condition. For a tree, the cause is a seed, tree seed. Cause for apple tree is apple seed.

Okay? Then the condition is a water, fertilizer, sunlight. The cause of cancer is?

You don't love other people in your city. Okay? That's the cause of cancer.

What's the condition? Chemical in your food, rubber in your air, pollution. These are condition.

Now, will the tree grow from the seed if the condition is missing? Yeah, if the apple seed is there. If you put apple seed on the stage, and it doesn't get water, it doesn't have soil, no sunlight, will the tree grow?

No. Okay, good. So, there's something you should understand about bad seed in your mind.

Okay? The seed who make your husband angry. The seed that cause your husband to talk bad to you.

Or don't give you hug when you want hug. Okay? There's a main seed.

Maybe you yelled at your kids. Or you didn't hug your kids enough. So, the seed is there.

Okay? Bad seed is there. But, if the bad seed doesn't get water, doesn't get sunlight, the husband will never call you bad word.

Understand? So, I'll say it again. Apple tree comes from apple seed.

To make apple tree, apple seed needs water, it needs sunlight. If you have apple seed, but it doesn't get sunlight or water, it will never grow tree. If you yelled at your kids last week, then you have yelling husband seed in your mind.

But what the book say now, se len me na len dang drelway sabun shin. Say se len, se len, me na, len dang, drelway, sabun, shin. Okay?

But, you yell at your kids. If that seed never gets water and sunlight, it will never open. Okay?

Now, something you have to know about seeds. Inside the mind, the seed stays in the heart chakra. Seeds are stored here.

Okay? And you have billions, billions of seeds are waiting. To open.

The space they take is less than the tip of a needle. Okay? Billions of seeds, alright?

Inside the heart chakra, the space is smaller than the tip of a needle. If they get water and sunshine, your husband will yell at you. Okay?

If they don't get water and sunshine, your husband will not yell at you. It's like you put the apple tree seed in the freezer. It will never open.

Okay? It's not gone, but it will never open. So, I will teach you two ways to put the seed in the freezer.

Okay?

[Speaker 2]
Ready?

[Speaker 1]
You heard in DCI, four powers. That's the usual way. So, I will repeat it.

Then I'll tell you the special way. Okay? And then that's enough for today.

So, here we go. It's called four powers to put the seed in the freezer. Sometimes, when you teach it to new people, you can say, here are four ways to destroy the seed.

But actually, it's not correct. You cannot destroy a karma seed. Not possible.

[Speaker 2]
Why?

[Speaker 1]
Because the law of karma is more powerful. Nobody can stop it. Buddha cannot stop it.

Okay? What is the law of karma? If you hurt someone, you will be hurt.

If you help someone, you will be helped. Even Buddha cannot fight with this law. Even Buddha live in this law.

And then no one can break it. And actually, that's good. Okay?

Try to imagine what will happen if this is not true. So, I live in a small town. We have farmers there.

We have one coffee shop. It closed at two o'clock. Okay?

It's so small town. After two o'clock, you cannot buy coffee anymore. So, I will go there, and these farmers, they are talking.

They have special English. Hey, Jay-Ed, what you got? What you got some plant this day?

What did you plant? Oh, John, I done plant some corn. Yeah, how did the corn come out?

You get lots of corn? Yeah. I done got lots of corn.

Then, we also don't understand half of their language. But, imagine the farmers are meeting in my town. Hey, Jay-Ed, how's your corn going?

What did you plant this year? I planted corn. Yeah, what came up?

Watermelon. I plant the corn, but the watermelon came up. Then, too many watermelons.

Then, I ever lost everything. Imagine this is farming. Imagine you plant a seed, but you don't know what will come out.

You plant apple seed. You get banana. Okay?

Imagine, try to imagine. Karma is the same. You cannot say bad word to your kids.

You are most stupid kids in Shanghai. Then, the result must be similar. Husband must yell at you.

Nobody can change that. Buddha cannot change that. But, Buddha taught us how to put the bad seed in the freezer.

It doesn't break the law of karma. It just keep the seed open forever. That's good.

Okay? All right, four steps. Step number one.

Think about the pen. Just think about the pen. Okay?

That's all. If you want to put the bad seed in the freezer, four steps. We don't call four steps, we call four powers.

They have the power to delay the seed from opening forever. Okay? So, number one, just think about the pen, you know, and your kids.

Okay? Then, that automatically leads to power number two. Why?

You think, oh, my kids come from seeds. My husband also comes from seeds. If I yell at my kids, and I put a bad seed in my mind, that bad seed grow 100% every 24 hours.

Yell at the kids on Wednesday. By Thursday, the husband has to yell at you once. By Friday, he has to yell at you twice.

By Saturday, he has to yell at you four times. By Sunday, he has to yell at you eight times. Then you feel, oh, oh, I got to cut this.

I got to cut this. Before Monday, it's 16, you know. That's the second step.

I must cut this seed. Okay? I must put it in the freezer quickly.

It's a doubling every 24, like cancer. I have to put it in the freezer, quickly. That's the second step.

Okay, what's the third step? I wish I had never planted this seed. I'm not going to ever do this again.

I will never yell at my kids again. See, step one lead to step two automatically. Step two lead to step three automatically.

I will never do this. That's the main freezer for the seed. Decide, I will never do this again.

Okay? I will never yell at my kids again. Is it true?

Impossible. Okay? Your kids are normal kids.

Sometimes they have bad days. Of course you will yell at them again. If you do step number three, I will never yell at my kids again.

You're going to make another bad seed, because you will yell at them again. So, the great teachers for the last 2,000 years, they said, make time limit. Make a time limit.

Okay, two hours. I won't yell at my kids. Then if you want, you can put some tape on your mouth for two hours.

Okay, make a time limit, but don't break it. So, make it reasonable. For two hours, I won't yell at my kids.

That's the main energy that puts the seed in the freezer. When you decide, I will not do this for two hours. That's the main power puts the seed in the freezer.

Okay? Then, step number four, power number four. Make some balance.

Okay, balance the karma. Like, if you yelled at your kids yesterday, then decide, today I will tell my kids one good thing about my kids. Then go in the kids room.

Mommy yelled at you yesterday. I said you are the worst kids in Shenzhen, but actually you're the most beautiful kids in Shenzhen. I'm so lucky to have you.

Okay, so balance the karma, balance the bad seed with a good seed. Power number three is a promise not to do something for a certain amount of time. Power number four is a promise to do something.

Okay, understand difference? Number three is negative. Number four is positive.

Okay, then these are the ways to put the seed in the freezer. Geshe-la, how much I have to do? How many days I have to do?

You know, when I was young, in college, before I became Buddhist, I had an abortion. Later I found out it's a mistake. Then I asked my teacher, how can I clean this seed?

How can I put this seed in the freezer? Okay, actually I killed a person. Very serious.

So I said, how can I put the seed in the freezer? Then he gave me a suggestion to start a children's class. Buddhism class for children.

And I did, I said, how long I have to do? He said, until you get the two signs that the seed is in the freezer. There are two signs that the seed is in the freezer.

Okay, it's good to know the sign. Okay, first one, comes from Jing Kang Jing. Okay, comes from, by the way, some child is playing.

Two children are there playing. And I taught this in New York one time, about, before I did my own three-year retreat. I taught, shouldn't do abortion, you know, from my own experience.

Then I did three-year retreat. When I came out of retreat, I taught again in New York. And I have special waiting room called green room.

You know, I can hide from the people. I can think about what I have to teach. So, I'm in the green room, and a hundred people are coming.

And a girl, small girl, came in the room. And she's all pink, like one of these girls today. She's all in pink, you know.

And looks like a ballerina. And she's dancing, and then, then her mother came in, you know. So, I'm sorry she came in your room.

I'm sorry. And I said, I don't mind. It's beautiful.

She's very beautiful. Then she looked at me, she says, this girl exists because of you. Three years ago, I came to your teaching.

I was pregnant. I was thinking to have abortion. And then, because of your talk, I didn't have abortion.

Because of that, she's alive. And I'm like, wow. I'm so happy.

And she said, it's the happiest thing in my life. So, anyway, I asked my teacher how to ... So, he said, you will get two signs.

First one is in the Jinkanjin. When the seed moves to the freezer, it will open a little bit. Okay?

Like, if I put a shigua zongzi on this stage, and it opens a little bit. If I put water, no sunlight, it will open a little bit. A little piece will come out, and then it will die.

It won't make a tree. It won't make ten watermelons. Okay?

A little piece will come out, and then it will die. So, Jinkanjin said, if you made the karma to have a cancer, which is like abortion, is that kind of karma. Then, instead of that result, you will get a sudden, unusual headache for like a whole day.

That serious seed just opened a little bit. Then, you will get a very bad headache for the whole day. Somebody put this teaching ...

many years ago, they put on a CD-ROM. I taught the four powers. They made a CD-ROM.

They gave to many people. Then, one lady called me. Geshe-la, I have to tell you a story.

I said, what's the story? I was driving my car down the Pacific Highway. It's the most beautiful highway in America.

It goes next to the Atlantic Ocean, to Los Angeles. Very beautiful drive. Geshe-la, I was listening to your CD about the four powers.

Number one, think about the pen. Then, I also thought about the pen. Everything comes from my seed.

So, automatically, I think about power number two. What bad seed do I have, and how fast it's growing. Automatically, that lead to power number three.

You know, I should make a promise. Then, she thought, I will make a promise right here in the car. I will promise not to do it again.

She's still listening to the ... Then, you should balance the karma. Then, she said, okay, I will help some kids.

Then, she reached the part we reach now. Two signs. The seed is in the freezer.

Number one, sudden small problems. Instead of cancer, you will get one day, whole day, headache, which you never had in your life. She said, when I got to this part, smoke start to come out of the car.

Then, the car catch on fire. I follow, jump out of the car. Whole car burn out.

My bad seed also burn out. She's so happy. You know, she's like, yay.

Then, I said, oh, that's a beautiful story. She said, two things I need. Number one, what's the second sign?

Because the seed burn out. Second sign, you will feel like free from an old problem. Okay?

Suddenly, your heart will feel like sunshine. You feel much younger and very happy. Because nothing on your mind.

Suddenly, you will feel very young and very joyful. That's the second sign that the seed is finished. Then, I said, what's your second question?

She said, I think because you taught this teaching, you should send me the replacement CD for free, because you burn up my first CD. Okay, I will send. Okay, last thing.

Then, we finish. This is a I'm going to make a mark. Okay.

The sunlight and the water for a bad seed is not understanding the pen. The person who understands the pen, took away the sunlight and the water from their bad seeds. All the time.

All their bad seeds. Okay? So, that's why, if you understand the pen well, you cannot become animal.

You see? Okay? Connection.

You see, if you understand the pen well, you took away the sunshine. You took away the water. Those bad seeds cannot grow.

The one which take you to animal, which take you to hell. Okay? So, just thinking about your beautiful real labs.

Almost everybody ... I saw 26 groups or something. Almost everybody's going like this.

I like it. I like it. Okay?

When you go like this, you are taking away the sunlight. You are taking away the water. For all your bad seeds.

Okay? Cool? So, keep going like this.

Thank you. 我爱你. I love you.