«Дар освобождения», курс 30 «Как пройти великое путешествие», занятие 2

[Speaker 1]
So, we're going to start with the lam rim. Lam rim means Steps on the Path to Enlightenment. And it's like a ...

when you buy a new juice mixer for your house, it comes with the instruction book. I have a friend who used to write these instruction books. He said it's very difficult because people, when they put together something, they are very stupid.

So, there's a big one and it says, open the box. And the second, big number two, and it says take the mixer out of the box, you know? So, lam rim is like that.

Just do this, then do this, then do this. Then suddenly you wake up and you're an angel.

[Speaker 2]
Okay?

[Speaker 1]
Enlightened angel. Then, to get the motivation to do that, we have to understand that this world is hopeless right now. I was listening to President Trump on the radio recently.

Okay, in my car. I live in a very remote place and sometimes only one radio station comes. Then he's saying like, well, the biggest problem is not global warming.

It's that we can all die from nuclear weapons tomorrow. It's like that, you know? We are worried about global warming and nuclear weapons.

Of course we should be. But even without them, your body will kill itself. All of us.

And when they make a list of how we died in this room, there'll be every kind of thing like, this person got lung cancer, this person got in a car accident. Oh, this person was swimming in Lake Chalapa and they drowned. Yeah, good.

Lake Chalapa. So, to get the motivation to try to become an angel, we have to wake ourselves up about the suffering in the world, and how serious it is. And in this room, how serious it is.

Some of us already have cancer. We don't know. Some of us might die on the road tomorrow.

We had a teacher training in the college in November, and on the last day we played the ... Seiji remembers, we played music, you know? And everybody's dancing, you know?

And the drummer was ... he's a boyfriend of one of my students, and he was a little bit off, you know? But usually he's never off, you know?

Then two days later, he went with his girlfriend to the restaurant next to the college. And he put some Thai food in his mouth and he died right there. Just died.

You know, and he looks normal. He looks ordinary, you know? And it was really strange, you know?

So, since then I couldn't play. I didn't play music since then. I felt uncomfortable.

[Speaker 2]
But, we're going to change here.

[Speaker 1]
So, we don't know, okay? And we have to ... it's possible to change it, but if you don't ...

if you don't think about it, you won't want to change.

[Speaker 2]
Okay.

[Speaker 1]
So, those of you who ...

[Speaker 2]
maybe you are coming for the first time or something, you came to the wrong class.

[Speaker 1]
This is the class about how suffering ... everything is suffering. The goal of this class is depression.

Okay, so let's go. Some of you depressed already, you can go advanced depression. That's for you if you want.

It's a little bit hot. Okay, we ... Nick, we're at RGA space BA apostrophe I, RGA BA'I SDUG BSNGAL NI I'm going to read the Tibetan.

I'm planting seeds for your next life. Okay, so don't worry. You don't have to learn anything.

Okay, just ... just relax. And I ...

we're making a video, and I want to pass on what my teacher taught me. Do you have that new photo? It's in those photos, but it's a little hard to find maybe.

Maybe that's too much, Nick. Never mind, it's too much. It's too many idims.

Okay, so here we go. You got the Tibetan. Let's just do the Tibetan.

Anyway, my teacher taught me this book for many years, and I want to teach each word. Okay, here we go. RGA BA'I SDUG BSNGAL NI RGA BA'I SDUG BSNGAL NI means, we reached the suffering of RGA BA.

RGA BA means getting old. And as we said this morning, it begins before you come out of the womb. You start to get old.

What's the DCI language for this ... for this part? Do you guys can guess?

Do you know? Nick just had a ... Nick just had it in his text.

It's CI SBYUNG BA'I RKYEN LAM RAG MA LAS PAR Without the need for any outer force, your body will kill itself. Yeah, we call ...

[Speaker 2]
in the DCI language, we call a baby in the vault.

[Speaker 1]
It means if a baby is born like, you know, a good healthy baby, you put them in a vault, a big bank vault, and their whole life they eat organic vegetables. And they do yoga every day. Still, their body will kill itself.

So, RGA BA'I SDUG BSNGAL NI RDO RGYA CHAL ROL PA LAS There's a famous sutra called the Play of the Universe, Cosmic Play. In Sanskrit, it's called Lalita, Lalita. It's a beautiful ...

I like the name. Anyway, RGA BA'I SDUG BSNGAL NI RDO RGYA CHAL And it's a poem. And it says that getting old makes beautiful people ugly.

RGA BA'I SRID ZHIGS CHOG CHEN THU THOB Aging, getting old, steals away your power. When you have a political power, or you have a powerful body, getting old will make you an old squeaky person. RGA BA'I ...

sorry. RGA BA'I SRID ZHIGS CHOG CHEN THU THOB RGA BA'I SRID ZHIGS CHOG CHEN THU THOB RGA BA'I RDE BA THROB Getting old steals every happiness you have in this life. You have children.

You finally bought a house. You finally got the job you want. Getting old will destroy all of them.

RGA BA'I NYE PAR BYED. NYE PAR BYED means as you get older, people start to ignore you. The older you get, and the less hair you have, and the more wrinkles you have.

Like you go to a restaurant, it takes more time to get the waitress to talk to you. RGA BA'I PHYI BYED, finally, getting old kills you. And DANG KYANG MTHROB, it means it steals your ...

email that has a lot of DANG. DANG means your face shines. There's a kind ...

some people have this kind of shining face, right? Like Earl, if he didn't have the beard, I think. But then, two hours after you die, it's all white and a terrible, terrible color.

Ugly color.

[Speaker 2]
Two hours after you die, it's all white and a terrible color.

[Speaker 1]
CHES SOGS LTAR GZUGS BSAM PO YONGS SU NYAMS PA. Now he's going to explain the sutra. You know, no matter how beautiful you are, you start to get ugly.

I had a ... you know, you meet ... when you meet a movie star ...

I met Nixon, for example. Yeah, and in the White House, and he ... they look terrible, you know.

By the time you get famous, you're too old and you don't look so good anymore. THUGS RTOGS NYAMS PA means all your strength is gone. My ...

everybody has an old lady, right, in this room. My old lady, now it's difficult because she can't get up from the chair. Now it's difficult.

She has difficulty to get out of a chair. DBANG PO NYAMS PA. Your ears go, your eyes go.

You can't hear anything, you can't see anything. I took my old lady to see a movie. It's called Heart's Beat Loud, I think.

It's not going to be a famous movie.

[Speaker 2]
Heart's Beat Loud.

[Speaker 1]
I think it's going to be in the movie theater for two days or something. Because it's a beautiful movie about a daughter and a father, and they lost the mother. How she grows up and they play music together.

Then I used to have ... I took my old lady to the movie, and I used to have to explain everything. I used to have to be careful not to take her to the movie where they will say bad things.

But now I don't have to worry. The daughter falls in love with another girl, you see, and there's a whole lesbian scene, but she didn't know what's going on.

[Speaker 2]
Because even with the earphones now, she can't hear anything.

[Speaker 1]
So, this is what you have to look forward to. YUL LA LONGS SPYOD PA NYAMS PA One good thing about my old lady, she's 93, she still has a very good digestion. You know Uta from Germany?

She always brings me a box of candy for the old lady. Then the old lady and me, we have competition who can eat the fastest. She's still faster than me.

But most older people, they can't even enjoy food anymore. TSE YONGS SU NYAMS PA SOGS KYI SDUG BSNGAL TE, and then slowly your whole life becomes less fun. DBANG PO DER SHES RAB SOGS RIM GYIS DRIB Your ability to understand things starts to ...

you start to lose it. Me and my old lady, we decided there's a new test for Alzheimer's. When you can't remember what Alzheimer's means.

We're almost there. Okay. LUS NI ZHUGS LTAR GUG Your body starts to get shaped like a bow of a bow and arrow.

So you are like this. There's a joke in Tibetan, I didn't drop a needle. I'm just that way now.

ZHUGS LTAR GUG, DANG NYAMS Your complexion goes bad. LANG DU DKA' ZHING, it's difficult to get up, and it's even difficult to sit down. DRAG BAR, your hair turns gray.

NYER MA MONGS means the wrinkles start to multiply. By the way, those of you who just ... you know, this is your first class, and why is this guy trying to depress everybody?

The goal is to wake up. We want to see what's really going on, and we want to admit it. We don't want to hide it or avoid it, you know.

Somebody showed me an app. Imelda showed me an app on the phone. It will make you younger, it will make you older.

You put your photo in it, and it makes you younger, older, it can change a boy to a girl, it can change a girl to a boy. We put a good beard on Jigme this morning. But I can't understand why they put the older part on it, because nobody likes it.

It shows you what you're going to be in 20 years. Then that's the photo you don't save. Okay, MI SDUG PA'ANG RANG NGO BZHIN DU, BZHIN DU SDUG PA SKYE BA PHOD PA LTA BU BYUNG STE, it means things are so bad for older people that it's almost like they died already.

RJE MI LAS GZHAN LAS, RJE MI LA means Milarepa, Milarepa. This is how we spell his name in Tibetan. He's probably the most famous meditator in the history of Tibet.

And he wrote hundreds of poems about meditation, beautiful poems. LTOS PUR BDUN PA'I DANG LUGS DANG GCIG So, I ... my mulberry ...

[Speaker 2]
I have a tree in my backyard, and I put a stake in the ground very deep to hold the tree up.

[Speaker 1]
Then ... by the way, which DCI language is that tree? It's a famous tree.

We call it Bird Poop Tree. And I'm not going to tell you the whole story, but I wanted a certain kind of tree in my yard, and Veronica said, no, she doesn't like this kind of tree. Then about two months later, a tree grew in my yard, the same kind of tree.

She got mad at me.

[Speaker 2]
She said, I thought we agreed not to plant this tree.

[Speaker 1]
I said, I didn't do anything. Then it was a ... she said, oh, it's a Bird Poop Tree.

This tree has berries on it. And the birds eat it. They eat too much.

[Speaker 2]
They fly over the house. They get diarrhea.

[Speaker 1]
They plant trees. Anyway, so, I was very proud that the tree got planted by a miracle, even though I didn't plant it. Then after I bragged about it for six months or something, a gopher ate the roots and killed it.

Then Veronica's like, I told you not to plant this tree. Why am I talking about that? Then I had to pull up this stake for holding it.

I had to pull the stake out of the ground. And you go like this and you're like ... So, Milarepa said, that's what old people look like when they're trying to get out of a chair.

JALA JAG PA'I DROD LUS BDAG NYID Then there's a special bird maybe here, like in Tibet, they call it Dzung Dzung.

[Speaker 2]
Crane.

[Speaker 1]
Crane. Eron, yeah, and they walk like this, you know. And they said, he said, old people walk like a crane.

That's just how they walk. SA DOG BYED PA'I DROD LUGS DANG GSUM, and when an old person sits down in a chair, it's like you're carrying a big bag of something, and you drop it, and it goes BOOM, BOOM. GSUM DE'I RDZUN PA'I DROD TSOS NA When you get to the point where those three things are happening to you, the stake, the crane, and the bag, ACHI means in local language, in grammar, grammar.

RGYUD LUGS DGOS PA'I YI PHA MA, then you're going to be sorry that you didn't prepare your rainbow body. What's a rainbow body? Angel body.

So, don't wait till you get too old, okay? Fix it now. Get your rainbow body now.

Don't wait till you're like a bag.

[Speaker 2]
Okay.

[Speaker 1]
GCIG PAR PA'I DUS PA'I GNYER MA DANG GCIG NANG SHA DAG SRED PA'I ROL PA DANG GNYIS PHA RLEN GUS DUN LONG MTHO YUL DANG GSUM Then he has another three.

[Speaker 2]
Milarepa three.

[Speaker 1]
GCIG PAR PA'I DUS PA'I GNYER MA DANG GCIG Number one, you're outside, your skin is a huge network of wrinkles. They start to connect, right? This one connect with this one.

NANG SHA DAG SRED PA'I ROL PA DANG GNYIS, then your body starts to get thinner, okay? And it doesn't matter how much yoga you do, the muscles start to degenerate, okay? And in between the muscles and the skin is your brain.

It also becomes like an idiot, like confused all the time.

[Speaker 2]
You know, I have a full-time job with my old lady.

[Speaker 1]
I help her figure out anything, like I bought her a camera.

[Speaker 2]
You know, I'm her advisor how to use the camera.

[Speaker 1]
Kodak company is making, as a retro thing, they are making this Polaroid you take in and you pull out the paper. They didn't make them for 30 years or something. Then I thought she would enjoy it for her birthday.

And she keeps forgetting, there's just one thing you have to do is push the button. She keeps forgetting, where's the button? How do you use the button?

Okay, that's between the skin and the meat, there's the brain, and the brain has become like that. Where's the button? ACHI MI BSDOD BSTAN PA'I MCHOG NYER MA.

[Speaker 2]
Oh grandma, now it looks like you're angry all the time.

[Speaker 1]
My mom used to tell me, don't get angry. She said, because your face goes like that. Then one day it will stick like that, and you can't stop it, you know.

So we ... all old people start to look like that, like they got angry, but they couldn't stop it, you know.

[Speaker 2]
Stuck, it got stuck.

[Speaker 1]
ZHES GSUNGS PA LTAR YIN, DI THAMS CAD KYANG BKHOR BA'I GNAS PA'I RKYEN NYIN This is the problem of living in samsara, samsara.

[Speaker 2]
Okay, then you are advanced Lam Rim guys.

[Speaker 1]
Did I teach you samsara today? Yeah, with my three bad kids.

[Speaker 2]
I mean good kids.

[Speaker 1]
And my two husbands, and it goes like this, right? That's samsara. So you can leave samsara without leaving chalapa.

Okay, this is not samsara. Samsara is yelling at your husband, your kids act bad, your kids act bad, you yell at them, then your husband yell at you, and this is samsara. Wheel of life, okay?

Wheel of life. Okay. KHA DANG PA'I RGYAS SHES KHA MA BA'I GZHAN NAS Then a thousand years ago in Tibet, there was a group of Buddhists, just like the Guadalajara group of Buddhists.

They were like a small part of the population. They were the first Buddhists in Tibet. But I like them, they're very hardcore.

And they had a lot of fun. Later it became all these monasteries, but in the beginning it was just like this. DGES PA SKYES KYI SKYES KYIS DBANG BA'I THAG THU BYED LA DBANG NA SEMS THAB MED Then this one Geshe from a thousand years ago, his name is Kamawa.

Kamawa. Not Kamalachi. Then he said, we are lucky that the aging happens day by day.

Because if it all happened in one day, we will go crazy. You wake up and your face look 50 years older, you will go crazy.

[Speaker 2]
He said, we're lucky it happens slowly day by day.

[Speaker 1]
Nick, you got an idim for me. So, here's the idim for this part of the teaching. It's a photograph that we tried to help you remember this part of the teaching, okay?

[Speaker 2]
Is that?

[Speaker 1]
I don't know if it's the right one. Number three? I said, oh sorry, GIF 30 Meditation number three.

The file name has the ... this might be it, I think. Yeah, I think this is it.

No, the last one. I'll look it up, hang on. Yeah, okay, it's the lady helping the older ...

yeah, this is it. Okay. Now, two things going on here.

This picture is going to remind you about the suffering of getting older. And when I pick someone's name tomorrow at random, from a bowl with all the names in it, and I ask you, what's the story of this picture? You're going to say, oh Geshe-la, don't trick me.

[Speaker 2]
There's two stories here.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, the two old people, you know, that's a story by itself. They're not strong enough to do yoga with Paula. They are doing in a chair.

I wish I could do in a chair. Okay, but the other lady helping them, this is a story ... so, in a Tibetan monastery, yoga is considered tantra.

It's secret, secret Buddhism. And we're not allowed to study yoga until we finish Geshe. Because it's a lot of inner prana things and like that.

We're not supposed to study that until we finish Geshe. So, when I finished my Geshe, one of my teachers said, okay, now you have to start yoga. Then the Geshe takes 20 years or 25 years.

Then I'm like, we don't do yoga here. I never saw anyone do yoga in this monastery. Total 3,000 monks.

Then my teacher always give me the same answer. There's many things you didn't see. Then I'm like ...

Then he sent me to the yoga teacher, you know. So, I studied yoga. I met the yoga teacher recently in an airport by accident, by accident, and in Hong Kong, coming from Hong Kong.

So anyway, we have a joke. I'm coming from the yoga teacher. He killed me for two hours or something.

[Speaker 2]
Secret class. Then I meet my usual Lama on the street, you know, in the monastery.

[Speaker 1]
Then he say, well, where have you ... what have you been doing today? Then I want to make him happy.

I will say, I did two hours of yoga.

[Speaker 2]
You know.

[Speaker 1]
Then he say, oh yeah, you look much stronger. Yeah, yeah. Also, now you are two hours closer to die.

So, even in the yoga class, you're trying to become healthy, right? But when you finish the yoga class, actually you are closer to your death than you were before the yoga class.

[Speaker 2]
I think you should just eat churros or something. It's more fun.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, all right. Well anyway, when you tell me the story of this picture tomorrow, you're going to say the two old people became like a bag who sit down like that, you know. But the most sad thing in this picture is the person in the middle, who is two hours closer to dying.

Okay, that's the answer for tomorrow. So, who's going to make this bowl for me? I need a bowl, or Pachi, a bowl with all the people's names in it.

[Speaker 2]
We have mini examination.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, DO NUB ZHU NUS BRTAG DANG, LANG SROG DANG, BRTEN ZHING ZHIN DU NYAL NAS, SANG RNAMS BLANGS PA NA, DBANG PO MI ZAL BA DANG, LUS DGE BZHIN GOS PA SOGS, DE LTAR GYUR BDUG NA, SEMS THABS MED DO NUB means tonight. DO NUB means tonight. You are fairly young, you have a nice complexion, you have a almost yoga body like Anatole.

Then if it happened that tomorrow morning, what's Friday morning? You wake up, and you can't hear things anymore, and when you read things you have to read them like this. And let's just say, LUS DGE BZHIN, yeah, and you can't stand up very good.

If all the getting old happened overnight, SEMS THABS MED, you will go crazy. You will just go crazy, okay? But it's all right, but it's happening.

Okay, it's happening, but we don't go crazy. We think it's okay. I can still do headstand.

I can still do headstand. The still is dangerous word.

[Speaker 2]
Yeah, I can still do one hour of yoga.

[Speaker 1]
It means even you understand it, later you won't be able to do it. DE NA THA LTA DBANG PO DANG ZHIG RANG DON LUS SOGS MA NYAMS PA'I DUS NDIR So, don't wait till you lose your eyes and your ears and your strength. CHOS BYA DGOS, do your Dharma practice now.

[Speaker 2]
Change bodies now.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, don't wait until something happens.

[Speaker 2]
Something will happen. Better to change to a rainbow body now.

[Speaker 1]
And it's not a theory, okay? It's real. You can do it.

You don't have to get old. You don't have to become stupid in your mind. Your mind can get more and more sharp.

I don't want to brag, but this Heart Sutra translation, it's a major commentary on the Heart Sutra. You're going to get part of it tonight.

[Speaker 2]
It took me 16 days to translate.

[Speaker 1]
It's just like, it's something strange in, you know, probably tomorrow I'll get stupid, but right now my mind is going the opposite way. So, I believe it's, I do believe it's possible.

[Speaker 2]
You know? Okay, so try.

[Speaker 1]
Your body, your mind can get younger. And you can do things you couldn't do when you were 20. A 60, if you're over 60 and you can do what a 20 year old can do, you are a wise 20 year old.

When you get to 60, you finally figure out what's life about.

[Speaker 2]
And then if you can change body to 20, then you have a good mind and a good body.

[Speaker 1]
Okay. THA LTA'I DBANG PO SHES LUS MA SNYAMS PA'I DUS DU BZHIN CHAGS DGOS KYIS PHYIN NAS RGYAS PA'I SDUG BSNGAL GYI NUS TE MI LUS PHOS PA BZHIN DU LUS KYI GNAS SKABS RGYUR Don't wait till you're too old to meditate. Okay, you're too old to sit like this.

Don't wait.

[Speaker 2]
Do it now.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, NUS TE MI LUS PHOS PA BZHIN DU DBANG PO SNYAMS SHING LA'ANG DUG TZAM YANG MI THUB PAR GYUR NA DE TSE CHOS JI LTAR BYUNG If you wait until you get so old that it's difficult to stand up out of a chair, you cannot meditate very well. No, you cannot practice well. And it's difficult to help other people, which is the main business of a Buddhist person.

Okay, GUNG MTHANG BSTAN PA'I GRUS MED KYANG, this is a famous Geshe from a place called Gungthang. DGE PA'A'I BI ZHIN CHE'I PHYI'I DGOS NAS DBANG RAB GUR BA'ANG BRTAG BRTAG LO DUNG LTAR DGAR BA'ANG DI NAG NO DRI MA BDAG PA YIN My hair got white, it's not because I got a super tantric initiation with the water got on my head and all my sins went away. That's not why my hair is white.

The Lord of Death spit on my hair, and it changed color. PHA MO GSUL GYIS PHA PA YIN It's the frost, you know, on the grass when it's a cold day, and there's this white color on the grass.

[Speaker 2]
You don't have frost in the grass. Yeah, the Lord of Death spit on my hair.

[Speaker 1]
BRTAG BA'I RANG NYON THOS GCIG GYIS So, in Tibet they have yak, right? With these horns like this. And it grows in small pieces, like year by year.

So, it's a wrinkle. It looks like wrinkles. He says, my yak horn wrinkles on my face.

This is not like Nicholas's wrinkles. When you have a young baby, very healthy, he will have some wrinkles here, you know?

[Speaker 2]
Like that.

[Speaker 1]
Not like that. TSE TSE BLO MA DE PA'I DRA RANG SDUG GI PO NYE'I PHYI PA YIN These wrinkles were written on my face by the messenger of the Lord of Death. They are, what do you call?

They're like a boarding pass. Oh, this one's ready to go. This one can go on the train, you know.

[Speaker 2]
The wrinkles on your face are the boarding pass of death.

[Speaker 1]
Then, he has a beautiful poem. It's a discussion of an old man and a young man. It's called the discussion of an old man and a young man.

We should translate it.

[Speaker 2]
It's like a hundred pages.

[Speaker 1]
Then he says, the snot dripping out of my nose uncontrollably, these are not pearls that I bought at the store. ZAL TZER LANG SOGS CHA RUNG DE SDUG BSNGAL GNYIS MA'I ZHUGS PA'I YIN They are the crystal eyes of youth.

[Speaker 2]
It's melting in the sunshine of death. And then it's dripping. I can't stop it.

[Speaker 1]
So, oh stop, stop. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, ice crystal.

[Speaker 2]
Yeah, yeah.

[Speaker 1]
SO'I MTHONG BA DE SKYES DU ZHUGS BYAS PA MIN These beautiful teeth falling out of my mouth, one by one. These are not ... there's no teeth coming in behind them.

Okay. MTSAN DI'I KHA ZAD TZANG BA YI Their work of this life of chewing is finished. They can leave now.

ZA CHA'I LA CHA'I SDUG PA YIN They are putting the forks away.

[Speaker 2]
Okay.

[Speaker 1]
Got it? It's a beautiful poem. We should translate it sometime.

SHIN RE'I DUS SHING SDOGS NGAN PAR My face shrinking with wrinkles like ... It's not ... in Tibet, they do this religious dance, and they put a mask on, you know.

I learned some of these religious dances. One is called the monkey dance, and we put on a monkey's mask. It's like this little face like this, you know.

Then he says, my face ... it's not that I'm going to go do the monkey dance. It's just happened like this.

My natural looker. YAR PO LANG SOGS SPYIR KHYER BA'I I borrowed a thing called youth, and now I'm giving it back. What's the ...

what's the DCI language? Rental car.

[Speaker 2]
Yeah.

[Speaker 1]
When you are born, you get a rental car, but you have to take it back to the airport.

[Speaker 2]
Okay, you can't keep it.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, your body is the same. MI SDUG RANG DOG BSTAN PA YIN My ... my body is starting to show ...

in English we say, you're starting to show his true colors. It means before he was not showing what he really is. Then when you're in ...

I don't know, probably it's the same in Mexico, when you ...

[Speaker 2]
you're doing something and your parents don't think you're doing it right, which is all the time, they go like this, right?

[Speaker 1]
Then he says, I'm not criticizing your work. My head just does that now.

[Speaker 2]
Got it?

[Speaker 1]
THAR BYED YOD PAS GNAS PHOGS PA'I MA SOS LAS PAR BDAG BA YIN My brain is shaking from the unbearable pain that the end of life is poking me like a stick. LAM MA KHA STE DGOS RWAN GYI RGYAL KHAGS POR NAS TSUL BA MIN When I walk down the street like this, it's not that I lost a needle and I'm looking for it. SA LA BLANGS SUR NO BU DANG CHEN PA LTOR BA'I I got to fix this.

CHEN PA LTOR YIN NAM GYUR YIN I didn't lose a needle, I lost the jewels of my youth.

[Speaker 2]
And I lost my memory.

[Speaker 1]
BLANG TSE GZUGS SHES RDZUGS PA DI CHU GYI LAS MO BYAS PA MED Then in Tibet, people sit on the floor, right? And when they get up, if you're really old, you have to go like this. He says, I'm not imitating a cow.

This is how I get up. CHIN PAS LUS PO MA THEG PA'I My own legs cannot hold up my own body. RAM BDEG LAG PA'I BYAS PA YIN My arms are trying to help my legs.

My arms are telling my legs, come on, we'll help you. Come on, let's get up. GDUR TSE CHEN GYIS LHUNG BA'I DI When I sit down like, boom!

CHOG LA GANG RAG BYAS PA MED It's not that I'm angry. Some people, they get angry, they go, I'm not angry. That's just how I sit down now.

CHOG SEMS KYI YANG THAG DANG The rope of my happy mind has been cut. And the rope of youth, which used to hold me up in a nice ... what do they call that?

Starting yoga position? Tadasana. Yeah, I can't do Tadasana anymore.

The thing that used to hold me up is gone. GDUR TSE YONG YONG CHOR BA'I DI When I walk, I walk like this. NYID CHEN GOMS BTAB BYAS PA MED It's not those guys in the movies who are big guys, and they're walking like this.

It's just my natural walk now. NA TSOG KUR PO HA BYANG RANG The weight of old age is too heavy for me.

[Speaker 2]
CI BA'I YOD RANG SHOR BA YIN And I can't keep my balance.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, Nick, you got my next one? Now it's that photo. This is the next idim, okay?

Then, if you live long enough, you will look like this. Okay, and you don't need an app anymore. It's just natural.

Okay, everybody in this room, I mean, most of us will not live that long, but if for some reason you do a lot of yoga and you live long, this is what you have to look forward to. Now, in the reading that you have, what page is this? You guys have it on your ...

Oh, what page is it? Page two. First picture.

Okay? If you don't have it, a notebook, then please get one after this class. Pachi, who should they talk to?

Okay, leftovers here. Get a notebook after the class, okay? I added something to these photographs.

I put the meaning of the photograph in the first line, what will I look like? But I think you should also think about how to stop it. So, after the first line, I put a second line.

The second line is how you can stop this future event. What's it say? Do I let small things go?

Like, people say things to me, people say something bad to me, or the food is not so great tonight, or Geshe Michael didn't get his Indian chai, and he gave away his coffee because he knew he was getting his Indian chai. Then let it go.

[Speaker 2]
Okay? Let the small things go. Like, if something happens you don't like, just immediately let it go, okay?

[Speaker 1]
And the karmic seed of that is that your face won't get like this, okay? Sorry, stop. So, so that's something you can do every day.

If you get really good at it, you can stop this process. Okay? You don't get the tea that you were supposed to get, or it's hot in Chalapa today.

[Speaker 2]
You know, then if you think about it a lot, the karma will make your face like that.

[Speaker 1]
So, if you're in a Lam Rim class, you should learn to let go of things immediately. Oh, I didn't get my ... okay.

Just talk to your mind, you know. The mind wants to say, I didn't get my tea, I didn't get my tea, I didn't get my tea. Yeah, you said that already.

You don't have to repeat. Just talk to your mind. Let it go.

You can get ... Jigme is going to feel so guilty, she will give you two every day now. So, just relax, okay?

[Speaker 2]
Okay, and the small causes of upset, let them go, and then your face won't change like this, okay?

[Speaker 1]
Now, what's the best way to make sure you don't get upset? Give me an answer in DCI language. The husband comes from you, Geshe-la.

You promised Aurit that manual for the college, but you didn't give it to her on time. It's like yelling at your kids. That's why you didn't get your tea today.

[Speaker 2]
You understand? Are you still going to get upset?

[Speaker 1]
Okay, got it? Got it? Then your face starts to get better, you see?

[Speaker 2]
It's cheaper than Lancôme.

[Speaker 1]
You can still do Lancôme also. It will work if you ... if you don't ...

[Speaker 2]
if you remember the second husband, okay?

[Speaker 1]
Okay, LHAG PA ... okay, I'm going to stop there, and we're going to do some fun, because this is so depressing. We're going to start a review of the Lam Rim.

So, I started this book eight years ago. Most of you weren't there at the first retreat. Sometimes we call it the flea retreat.

We rented a Boy Scout camp.

[Speaker 2]
Boy Scouts.

[Speaker 1]
Two things happened. First thing, the beds are four beds on top of each other. Bunk bed.

[Speaker 2]
And they are bunk beds for kids.

[Speaker 1]
Then the first night some guy came to my room. He's got a gash, his head is cut open like this. He's like, I woke up, and I sat up, and I got ...

man, he's got to go to the hospital. Then ... then I take him to the hospital, and it took like four hours, and come back, go to bed.

[Speaker 2]
After half an hour, some lady wake me up.

[Speaker 1]
I need help.

[Speaker 2]
I'm like, what? My bed has fleas.

[Speaker 1]
All the beds had fleas. Everybody's like in the Lam Rim. So, if you weren't there, you are lucky.

In one way, you are lucky. By the way, it was cheaper, okay? It was like a hundred dollars.

[Speaker 2]
Now we sort of moved up.

[Speaker 1]
The price also moved up. I'm sorry. We're not getting rich.

We are also ... even today, we are losing money, okay? So, don't worry about it.

Anyway, I want to go back and cover the important ideas from eight years ago. And each time I come, we will review ... oh, look at that.

Very quick. Strange. Okay.

Okay, so here we go. Nick, you ready? And I got to get the ...

I got to get this different book up. Hang on. Hmm.

Oh, I know. Okay, so last time we ... the last retreat we did, we started this review process.

[Speaker 2]
And we went to the end of the book.

[Speaker 1]
Why? Anybody can tell me why?

[Speaker 2]
Yeah, I thought that there's a classical way of learning Lam Rim, where we meditate every day.

[Speaker 1]
I teach you how to meditate, which will start tomorrow. And then you're supposed to meditate, for example, about getting old.

[Speaker 2]
And that's the classical way to study Lam Rim.

[Speaker 1]
But if you don't know how to meditate, you can't do the meditations. So, the first year of this teaching, I taught how to meditate.

[Speaker 2]
That comes from the end of the book.

[Speaker 1]
Then after one year, we went back to the beginning of the book. So now, you guys are lucky, because we're going to start the review from the beginning of eight years ago. Okay, so here we go.

So, this is kind of like ... what do they call that? Highlights of the soccer game.

[Speaker 2]
Like, I don't have ...

[Speaker 1]
I don't have time to watch the whole soccer game. Like, 90% you're just like this. I like to see the goals, you know.

Germany's goal last year was it? Or the year before?

[Speaker 2]
That was awesome.

[Speaker 1]
Two years ago. That was awesome.

[Speaker 2]
The guy kicked you upside down, and you know ...

[Speaker 1]
I was on a Lufthansa plane when it happened. I was afraid the plane is going to fall down. So, this is the highlights of the Lam Rim, okay?

[Speaker 2]
You are getting all the goals and ...

[Speaker 1]
Okay, first one, Nick. Anybody want to guess what is this idim about? See, that's what you have to learn.

[Speaker 2]
I show you a picture, and you tell me what you think it's about.

[Speaker 1]
Say it again. Yeah, he's right. The name of this book was translated wrong.

I hate it. Okay, they call it Liberation in the Palm of Your Hand. That's like this.

That's not the title of the book. The title of the book is, Aldo, give me your hand.

[Speaker 2]
Take it. Take it.

[Speaker 1]
Take it, man. The name of the book is very cool. It's like, push, push Buddhahood into your hand.

Take it. Take it Aldo. It's not like ...

[Speaker 2]
nam dro lak jang su dupa, dupa means push it in the guy's hand. Hey man, I just came to Chalapa because it's a cool place to vacation. Yeah, well take this liberation too.

Here, angel body.

[Speaker 1]
That's the name of the Lam Rim, okay? It's like ... I don't know.

It's like pushing good drugs into somebody's hand.

[Speaker 2]
Take it. Take it man, take it.

[Speaker 1]
It's not like ... I know, okay? Now I'm going to give you the whole name, okay?

So, you're supposed to tell me, when I show you this picture, you're going to say, this is idim. Really, it's the very first idim in the whole book. It's the title of the book.

If you come to this class regularly, and to Aldo's and Alejandro's classes regularly, they will push, push angel body into your hand.

[Speaker 2]
You're like, whoa, whoa.

[Speaker 1]
Now I'll give you the whole, the whole title, okay? NAM DU LAG BYANG SU BSTOD PA means push freedom into a person's hand.

[Speaker 2]
MANG NAGS SA MO, very, very deep teaching.

[Speaker 1]
SANG LA MA NOR BA, it's complete, and there's nothing wrong in the whole book. TSUNG MED CHUG GI RGYAL PO THUG BCUD It's Tsongkapa's heart's essence. BYANG CHUB LANG GI RIM PA, this is the steps on the path to enlightenment.

[Speaker 2]
NYAM CI, say NYAM CI.

[Speaker 1]
NYAM CI means ... the teacher didn't just read the words, the teacher tried to give you that experience in your heart. If I did a good job today, you should, when you leave this tent after this class, and you go home and sit in your room, you should be a little nervous about getting ...

you know, you should be looking in the mirror and like, well he talked about ... Yeah, and it's true. If you go home a little worried about getting older, then I successed.

I succeed as a teacher, you see? Okay, Sinti, that's more ... the title also says Sinti.

This is a Sinti. Sinti means ... This is notes that were taken during a live teaching.

This is a live teaching notes. It's like the Allman Brothers at the Fillmore East, Scott, tell me why that's relevant. It's a live album.

Rolling Stone said it's number one guitar playing in history. And it's live, and it sounds like they sat in the studio for three years or something. This book is live.

[Speaker 2]
It was a live performance, and it's the greatest book of its kind, because of the person who recorded the band.

[Speaker 1]
And that was ... his name was Trijang Rinpoche. Trijang Rinpoche.

[Speaker 2]
He's my teacher's teacher, and he's the teacher of this Dalai Lama. And he recorded this live performance.

[Speaker 1]
You know, when you have to carve things, like this is 1920s.

[Speaker 2]
There's no electricity in Tibet.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, he's like ... and he did a perfect job.

[Speaker 2]
It's called a Sinti.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, Tsongkapa Kunkyi Chudu. This is the cream of the cream of all the teachers of Tibet. Dam Ngak.

Dam Ngak means ... it's not like some book. It's like the Lama's talking to you.

[Speaker 2]
It's not like the Lama is talking to you.

[Speaker 1]
Then here comes the real name of the book, okay?

[Speaker 2]
It's called Dutsi Nyingpo.

[Speaker 1]
Dutsi ... anybody? Yeah, the Essence of Nectar.

The Greek word Nectar means Nectar.

[Speaker 2]
Nectar.

[Speaker 1]
It means a sweet juice from a fruit. Nectar.

[Speaker 2]
But in the ancient Greek, nek means death.

[Speaker 1]
Like necrophilia. And tar means freedom, like tara.

[Speaker 2]
Tara.

[Speaker 1]
So, what's Nectar?

[Speaker 2]
Yeah, freedom from death.

[Speaker 1]
The name of the book is Nectar.

[Speaker 2]
Okay, in Sanskrit?

[Speaker 1]
Amrta.

[Speaker 2]
Amrta.

[Speaker 1]
A means not.

[Speaker 2]
Mert means to die, like mortuary or murder. Okay, this book is Nectar. Tastes sweet.

Almost better than chai.

[Speaker 1]
Yeah, see? Very sweet, and also make you not to die.

[Speaker 2]
Okay, that's the real name of the book. Nectar.

[Speaker 1]
Shejawa Shukzong, this is the name of the book.

[Speaker 2]
So, I'll give you the ...

[Speaker 1]
Nick, you want to look it up in our catalog? What the whole English name is? Okay.

When you're ready, let me know. Okay, so this is the review.

[Speaker 2]
We just did the first one.

[Speaker 1]
We're going to do, I think, 47 of them. Okay, this is the first one. I'm going to show you a picture of somebody putting a gift in the other person's hand.

And you're going to say, oh Geshe-la, that's the very first one, that's the name of the book. Read this book, and somebody put deathless nectar in your hand. Okay, cool?

Not bad. You don't even think you need it, but you do. You might need it tomorrow.

Okay, okay, give me the English name of the book. Okay, so just call it Liberation Thrusted in the Palm of Your Hand. He puts his Lama's ...

now I'm going to just jump through the book, the most important pieces. He puts his Lama's real name.

[Speaker 2]
So, we call Pabongka Rinpoche, right?

[Speaker 1]
But his full name, he said, BYED TZIN BYAMS PA BSTAN ZIN PHYIR LAS RGYA MTSOR PA'I LAS SANG PO CHOG NAS SGRUB PA'I GNAD CHOG. Okay, this is his his full name, his religious name. You don't have to learn it.

[Speaker 2]
Just say Pabongka Rinpoche.

[Speaker 1]
And he was an incarnation of a very famous Lama who taught the King of China, who taught the Emperor of China. Okay, GNAS CHOG BA'I GNAS CHOS SANGS RIGS DROD, he had a little retreat cave up in the mountains, and his student asked him to come to teach at the monastery. He said, no.

So he said, can we build a a teaching hall on the front of your cave? And they they built a teaching hall on the front of his tiny little cave, and he just walked out and teach 700 people there.

[Speaker 2]
Okay, it was in 1921, probably September or October. About 700 people came.

[Speaker 1]
Then he names all the sources that the Lama used. There are eight famous Lama in books. And the Lama used eight, he taught from eight different books.

Next picture Nick, 63A. Okay, nope, A. Nope, nope, Pabongka.

No, you don't have? Oh, sorry, I didn't notice him. I'm sorry.

This is the teacher who taught the book. Okay, his name is Pabongka Rinpoche. Then he's famous because he taught normal people.

If he was alive today, he would be a DCI teacher. Okay, he didn't want to teach in the monastery. He wanted to teach normal people.

Probably he's jumping around and doing the two husbands in the kitchen talk. And he was criticized by some people for making the Dharma too fun.

[Speaker 2]
Too much fun with the Dharma.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, then next photo.

[Speaker 2]
This is his student, Trijang Rinpoche.

[Speaker 1]
This is the one who was my teacher's teacher. My teacher was there when Pabongka Rinpoche taught some of these lamrims. He was a young man, 18 I think, and he was in charge of dinner.

Okay, just like Pachi's team. My Lama was, it's called, what's it called? Kunyir?

Nyerpa. Like, he has to make sure the dinner's ready, and he cannot come to the teaching because he's wasting all his time carrying food around and stuff like that. Why my teacher was in charge of the food?

[Speaker 2]
Because he was a very bad, naughty, young monk.

[Speaker 1]
Like, he liked to do bad things, you know, like he will spread thumbtacks at the teaching place, on the floor.

[Speaker 2]
Things like that. Not immoral, just fun.

[Speaker 1]
Then, so he got in trouble and they told him, you have to be the, you have to take care of the food. Then Pabongka Rinpoche said, I want to see the people in charge of the food. And they brought my teacher, and he went like this, he said, oh this one, he's a good boy.

And then after that, something happened to my teacher's brain.

[Speaker 2]
And he became the greatest Geshe in Tibet.

[Speaker 1]
They had a contest, who can debate, and he beat all the monks in the major monastery.

[Speaker 2]
Something happened to his brain.

[Speaker 1]
Cool! So anyway, that's his teacher. And he met, he took some teachings from Pabongka Rinpoche when he wasn't in the kitchen.

Now, when I used to go for inter-monastery debate between monasteries, sometimes we'd go to Ganden Monastery. This is Trijang Rinpoche's monastery. This is Tsongkapa's home monastery.

In the, up to 1959, 10,000 monks there. Then, so I will always stay at his place, Trijang Rinpoche's. They have connection with my teacher, so I always stay at his home.

Of the reincarnate? Who's still alive. He's in America now.

[Speaker 2]
But, so I stayed there during the debates.

[Speaker 1]
And there's a beautiful photo on the wall.

[Speaker 2]
Nobody knows about it.

[Speaker 1]
So I took a secret picture.

[Speaker 2]
Nick, this is Trijang Rinpoche with the Pope. Okay?

[Speaker 1]
Pope Paul VI. They had like secret meeting at the Vatican, and I think it's so cool.

[Speaker 2]
He gave the Pope these Tibetan symbols. Whoa! Which is very precious in Tibet.

Then the Pope gave him a very rare Bible.

[Speaker 1]
And I think the Pope didn't know, or maybe he ... but Trijang Rinpoche was a very, very fanatical book collector. So he gave him the best thing that he could give him.

[Speaker 2]
I don't know, maybe Pope has some power like that.

[Speaker 1]
Okay, last thing about ... so this idim has four pictures. Nick, first one?

63A? First one. Yeah, so this idim is going to have four pictures.

Number one is Pabongka Rinpoche.

[Speaker 2]
You have to say, oh, he taught the book. Picture number two.

[Speaker 1]
Oh, oh, that's Trijang Rinpoche. He wrote the book down. He was the human iPhone recorder.

Third picture. Oh, that's a secret meeting, Trijang Rinpoche and the Pope. But the most important picture in this idim is this one.

The reaction to this book in Tibet was immediate. Immediately people reacted. And people went crazy.

It was like Pabongka Rinpoche was like a rock star.

[Speaker 2]
People were like, ah!

[Speaker 1]
Not like this. Not see. Maybe it wasn't so warm there.

And there's very ... then they say some people just start crying the whole time. It was it was 24 days.

Some people cried the whole time.

[Speaker 2]
Some people are laughing the whole time.

[Speaker 1]
My teacher told me, you know, you want to know something cool about this teaching? I don't think it's in the book, but there was a Secretary of Defense, the head of the Tibetan army. He was in the teaching, and he had this long like Japanese sword, right?

Ceremonial sword. And my teacher was there. He said, at the end of the teaching this big general came up to the Lama with the sword.

And he said, make me a monk. He threw the sword. He said, take the sword, make me a monk.

[Speaker 2]
I want to be a monk. So, the teaching was very powerful.

[Speaker 1]
And he was cool. He'd make a lot of jokes.

[Speaker 2]
Sometimes people crying, sometimes people laughing, sometimes they're laughing and crying.

[Speaker 1]
So anyway, you've got to get the feeling of this teaching, okay? And that's what the picture is, okay?

[Speaker 2]
People were like, damn!

[Speaker 1]
Okay, got it? That's what the idim is. Yeah, let me see.

Yeah, okay, maybe we stop there.

[Speaker 2]
What it means is ... So, we are having our first teacher trainings here, ACI. And you are learning to teach.

So, it means teach like Pabongka Rinpoche. Turn people on. Make it fun.

Make them laugh. Tell dirty jokes. It's okay.

Don't tell them when Veronica's here. She says ...

[Speaker 1]
she's like that.

[Speaker 2]
Okay, but you know, wake people up. Have fun. It's your lineage.

[Speaker 1]
Okay?

[Speaker 2]
That's Pabongka Rinpoche.

[Speaker 1]
He wasn't this boring, you know ... He had a lot of fun. Okay, and that's very important.

[Speaker 2]
The first thing I will tell a new teacher, have fun! You know, if you're getting older every hour, then ... have fun!

You know, have some fun!

[Speaker 1]
You got to take ... you got to take the rental car back, right? You know, while you have it, don't be depressed, and don't be serious, okay?

[Speaker 2]
Don't be so serious, you know. Have some fun, okay?

[Speaker 1]
And the Dharma should be taught with respect and with fun. Cool? All right, Mr. Earl, you ready?

Is that the time, right? Okay. And bring your kids.

[Speaker 2]
No, Rinpoche always asked people to bring their small children, and it became part of the teaching.

[Speaker 1]
And those kids now are 40, 50 years old. They are awesome Dharma people.

[Speaker 2]
SASHI PUNKI GYOKSHIN MEDDOK TRAM RIGRAP LINGCHI NYINDE GYENPA NYIN SANGYE SHINGDU MIKTE UARGYI DROKUN NANDAK SHINGLA SUPAR SHUNG YIDAM GUNUR RAGNAMANGALA KAMMEYA TAYAMI DIG GENWOGEN SONAM GYESHE TSOT SOG SHING SONAM GYESHE LE CHUNG MED DAMPAK GUNG NYID DOG PAR SHUNG That last prayer means, I hope that people understand emptiness, and I hope people understand karma.

[Speaker 1]
That's the ... we always make this the last prayer. And every Buddhist teaching in every Tibetan monastery, that's the last prayer.

[Speaker 2]
And every Buddhist teaching in every Tibetan monastery, that's the last prayer.