AGOL 23, Гайдед-медитации — стенограммы

[Speaker 1]
Alright. So, what's the first step of Vairagyama? Akshobhya?

Turn off your cell phone. Turn off your cell phone. Second, blow your nose, clear throat.

Then come to quiet, like a stone. Try not to move your body. No moving at all.

No noise, no moving. No moving. Little bit of a smile.

Stomach is tight. Tighten your stomach. Relax your forehead.

Relax your mouth. And please come to your breath. Follow your breath.

Try to count ten breaths without thinking of something else. Exhale is the first half, inhale is the second half. If you think of something else, then start again.

And please invite to this room one of your teachers. If you have a heart mama, invite your heart mama. And they come to sit down with you, meditating knee to knee.

Then try to think of something about your teacher that you admire, something you would like to be yourself. Then make them an offering of something sweet you did yesterday, something nice you did. Now tell them something you did yesterday that you're not happy about, some mistake you made.

Now try to think of something you saw somebody else do yesterday, which was very nice. Be happy. And ask your teacher to teach you.

Keep teaching you, hold on. And ask your teacher to stay with you. And don't leave you, even after you die.

Okay. Now imagine that you're lying on your deathbed. You're dying.

Try to imagine where it will be if you died in the next few weeks. You are lying down on a bed, and your family is looking down at you. The people you love are standing next to the bed.

You are looking up at them. They are very sad, some of them crying. Imagine holding your hand.

Imagine who will come to your deathbed, who will be there. Then your hands and feet begin to get cold. You can feel cold.

The blood is slowing down. Very cold fingers. Then your arms and legs are cold, very cold.

No feeling in your hands and legs. Difficult to breathe. Breath is getting shorter and shorter.

The nostrils of your nose are drying up and they are starting to close. Very difficult to breathe. Colder, almost to your chest.

Family is crying. Your mouth is dry. It's difficult to open.

Arms and legs are white, turning very white. No more blood. No more blood moving.

Whole chest very cold now. Cannot open your eyes. Eyes are closed.

You can hear your family, but it's difficult to hear. The crying sounds far away. Whole body is numb.

You can't feel anything. Very cold. And then you're just alone in the dark.

You think about your lama, your teacher. Wish that they could be with you. They can hear you.

And they come deep inside your mind. In the darkness. Darkness like a single grain of sugar.

A small crystal like a single grain of sugar. Inside the dark. And inside the crystal is your teacher.

So you are not alone. Everything is black except the small crystal with your teacher inside. Feel safe.

Feel protection. Just be with them for a moment. And please come back to your breath.

Watch your breath. Three deep breaths. Then you can slowly open your eyes.

Take a stretch.