«Дар освобождения», курс 4 «Ретрит об энергиях», занятие 14

[Говорящий 2] (0:00 - 4:35)
Okay, we'll meditate. Please watch your breath. Please ask your heart lama to come and sit with you.

I'd like to feel the warmth of their body in front of me. If you smell the fragrance of their skin, see their eyes blink, see their chest moving up and down with the breath, see their love in their eyes for you, and think of one of their qualities that you would like to have, and honor them by thinking of that quality, and make them an offering, something good you've done this week. Maybe we can offer the whole week's effort.

[Говорящий 1] (4:37 - 4:48)
If it's not easy, it's not your home, you're staying with other people, maybe you couldn't sleep as well as usual, you didn't have all the things that you usually have around you.

[Говорящий 2] (4:53 - 12:20)
Offer them your hard work this week, and you did good work. Your meditation is good. Then purify any negative deeds this week.

When we're working this hard, some negative things come up. Purify them, and think of the joy you've had here, the good times, the beautiful times, the good times in meditation, the beauty of the fire, the fellowship you felt with the other people here. Rejoice in the beauty of your time here, and think of how you'd like to be tomorrow, when you're back in your regular life.

What would you like to keep with you from this week that's different? Ask your teacher to help you, stay close to you, whether it's someone you already know, or someone you will come to know. Ask them for help, guidance in the next coming week.

Then come back to your breath. Please separate off a part of your mind to the back. Begin to watch the main mind.

Think its thoughts. Please try to block any future thoughts.

[Говорящий 1] (12:20 - 12:34)
It's very difficult on the last day of a program not to think about the airplane, and being home, and things you have to do next week. See, if you can do it today, you can really do it anytime.

[Говорящий 2] (12:35 - 16:17)
You can stop future thoughts. Be here until you're not here, and block any thoughts of the past. Try to settle in and relax, and be quiet here in this present moment.

Then please pass the hand of your mind over the area behind your heart, in front of your spine, and see if you can find chakra. When you find it, try to hold your mind on it. Then go into the chakra.

[Говорящий 1] (16:21 - 16:55)
What I'd like you to try this morning is picture a small piece of, looks like liquid glass, or you could say, less descriptive is mercury, quicksilver, and silver. But this liquid glass, this spot of liquid glass, I would like you to make it as small as possible. So, when you first think of it, it's maybe as large as a golf ball or a marble.

[Говорящий 2] (16:55 - 20:01)
And then I'd like you to shrink it, smaller and smaller and smaller, to the size of a grain of sand, and then split that in half. Very powerful, tiny grain of life. So, the life inside of you, and in, cannot be extinguished.

It's the source of your life. Focus the mind on the smallest grain of powerful life you can imagine in your heart. When you get it in your mind, then split it in half and make it smaller.

Then imagine it's the same grain of life which is in your teacher's heart. There are one grain of life. Please come back to your breath.

And ask your teacher to come into your heart. You can relax, open your eyes, stretch.

[Говорящий 1] (20:04 - 1:09:54)
Okay, tapgyu gyagre. Say, tapgyu gyagre. We have to do a horse race.

They call it a horse race when a lama is running out of time. They start, like His Holiness does the eight verses, and he does one in the first three days, and then he does a tapgyu. Okay.

So, here we go. Je Kelsang Tenzin Diye Kuche Chungwa Yinpe. Dr. Hladeng Riddu Dukshupa. So, there was a younger brother of the lama we talked about last. His name is Je Kelsang Tenzin. Then he wanted his older brother to come to the...

The older brother, one of the lamas that we were talking about, who got embarrassed by the old man, because he offered to explain to the old man the lamrim that he got the transmission for. So, he wanted to invite his brother to his hermitage. Je Losang Jimbal Hladeng Riddu Supeb Gokyang Yangyang Shukhyang Pebmatupa.

But the older brother wasn't able to come. Je Suryamjakye Ngangne Sikpe Ryukyukyi Chi Nangkunsel So, the older brother, who's the one who got the transmission from the old monk, he decided to freak out his little brother, which is very unusual. In his meditation, he went to the younger brother's retreat cabin.

Then, when they met later on, he said, ,'KHYOD KYI RID DU LA BDE PA'I TZAM LA MTHONG CHUNG, I came to your retreat cabin in my meditation, and I looked around at the whole thing. ,YE YONG GI ZHUGS PA TSUN CHAD KYI YOD LUG ZHIG TU GSUNG, Then he started to describe the meditation cabin to his little brother, and even down to the shape and branches of the juniper trees around the cabin. ,KHYOD KYI GAG PIG NANG DU, ,GAG PO CHEN PO ZHIG DGOS TZAM CHAD PA ZHIG DU, But he said, I had a problem.

There was some... In the middle of the cabin from the outside, I could see some kind of white, something white moving here and there, like this, and I was wondering what it is. Could you tell me what it is?

And then the younger brother said, ,'Oh, that was the... I had a curtain that used to really bug me, because the wind would catch in, and then I was trying to meditate, and the curtain would fly back and forth.' So, it means the older brother really saw the retreat cabin. ,DGOS TZAM CHAD PA NYAMS SHAG GI GNAN DU ZHIG PA DUNG, ,DE'I SBYUNG GAL SANGS RTEN ZIN LA SNANG, That person gave it to his younger brother, GAL SANGS RTEN ZIN.

,DE YANG SDO NGAG GI SGRUB PA'I SGO BA'ANG THUN PAR ZHIG, He was a very highly realized person. ,RGA BYED NANG SKABS CHEN YAS YIN NAS, ,'OD ZER SKABS PO RE RE DROD DE, So, when he would give teachings on the long rim... We're still in the southern lineage, okay?

From the sides of his eyes would come light rays, white light rays, and they would play with the people in the audience. ,OD ZER SKABS PO RE RE, ,CHOS DE BLO ME TSOG LA YOD YONG DGOS DU BYAS DE, ,'GRUL RENG PA NA, And when the... What's GRUL?

What's GRUL MA? Tara, okay? So, GRUL without the S.

GRUL means to be liberated. GRUL. But it came to mean to let out class.

When the class is let out, you say, ,RDZIN DU DROD RE, Is the class liberated? It means, have the people, have the monks come out of class yet? When it was time, RENG PA NA means when it's time.

When it was time for the class to let out, then the light rays would come back to his eyes. ,RENG PA NA YOD YONG DGOS DU BYAS DE, ,SKABS NA BA DANG RING GO DE PHRAG PA SOG DROD NYAM DU CHUNG BA'I, Then he would be giving his teaching in the monastery, in his room. Most teachers teach in their bedroom, and they sit on their bed, and the students sit on the ground.

So he would be teaching in his bedroom, and then he would also show up half a mile away at some circumambulation place. Because the older monks, to get exercise, they walk around the monastery, the outside of the monastery like that. It's like a half mile walk or something.

Depends on how big your monastery is. ,DROD NYAM DU CHUNG BA'I BYAMS MI, ,LOD TZAR DU RGYUR, So some people would leave the class and then go bump into him during his circumambulations, and they freaked out. ,LA CHOD SOGS SHING YONG RDZOGS KYI ZHAL ZIG, He was fortunate enough to be able to have direct encounters in his meditation with the ,LA CHOD SOGS SHING YONG RDZOGS KYI ZHAL ZIG, What's that?

The ,SOGS SHING YONG RDZOGS KYI means all the teachers who have passed it down. ,LA CHOD SOGS SHING YONG RDZOGS KYI ZHAL ZIG, I'll say the whole word, ,LA MA CHOD PA'I BYAMS MI, All right, so we're going to do ,LA MA CHOD PA'I BYAMS MI this afternoon. And it's a very, very high practice.

Making offerings to, when you do it, you have to think of your own teacher. I mean, they're going to go through all the stuff, and then you offer the sky covered with flowers, and you have to really, you know, what do you call it? Make it cool and, you know, how do you say?

Be lavish in your offering. Like, okay, I offer the Milky Way and every star covered with flowers, or something like that. You have to think big.

,SOGS SHING YONG RDZOGS KYI ZHAL ZIG, So he had direct contact with all those lamas who have taught the ,LA MA CHOD PA'I through the years. ,LA MA CHOD PA'I was written by first Panchen Lama. So it's about 350 years old, something like that.

300 years old. ,ZHIG DUS U THU LA YANG, ,JE LA MA CHOD PA'I RANG BYUN CHUNG BA, When he passed away, and his flesh had, you know, somebody opened up his tomb later on, and they found his skull. And on his skull was etched the main figure of the ,LA MA CHOD PA'I.

We call it RANG BYUN. RANG BYUN means spontaneous. It came out spontaneously.

Sometimes you see it on a pine tree or something. There'll be a RANG BYUN of your teacher's face, or the first letter of your teacher's name. That's called RANG BYUN.

Sometimes they get kind of stretched. Somebody will say, I found a RANG BYUN. And you're like, well, let's go see.

Then he says, look at that rock. You're like, it looks just like our teacher's nose. You're like, I don't know, man.

Anyway, he had a real RANG BYUN on his skull. DA DA YANG LHA DING RIS DU DU SHUG, You can still see that skull, okay? At the hermitage called LHA DING.

All that stuff was destroyed in the Cultural Revolution. It's all gone. All those beautiful things are gone.

They were all smashed and burned and destroyed. And there was a huge orgy of destruction, and everything was destroyed. The great printing, the great monasteries that housed all the woodblocks, and everything was just flattened to the last brick.

They dynamited carefully everything. It was all just flattened. There's just rubble now.

There's nothing left. All of these beautiful things, okay? LHA DING RIS DU DU SHUG, NGO TSAR GYUR, DE'I GRUB WANG KYAL SANGS KHAS GRUB LA SNANG, He gave the teaching to GRUB WANG KYAL SANGS KHAS GRUB.

DE YANG KHOR LO DONG PA'I SGO NEN GRUB PA NYES PA ZHIG YIN, This was also another lama who had practiced Chakrasamvara and reached high realizations. They're always talking about Vajrayogini, right? When they say, they keep repeating Chakrasamvara, but they're talking about Vajrayogini as the 51st chapter of the Chakrasamvara Tantra.

MNGON NI NIBDAS DE'I DUS NAS BDAG GIS BSKYED BU'I LAM MA RIM PO CHE SEMS And my teacher learned it from him. Okay, so he wants you to know that he has an authentic lineage. And he's tracing back every single Lama, back to the beginning of the lineage.

Later you can learn to do that, okay. You can impress people at cocktail parties and stuff. You can say, RGYA BA RGYA TSOG RIG DANG RUG DRIG GYUR, RGYA BA YIN GYUR, RGYA BAS GYUR MA GYAG TSOG DUS BU'O, RGYA BA DRAG PA DRAG TSOR BU'O NGAG DRAG LAG LAG, Then you can count the 42 Lamas back, you know.

Like, I have a lineage. I saw a cartoon in the New Yorker one night. And I know it was like...

Some guy's at a cocktail party with this cute girl and she's like, No, I don't really want to know your secret mantra. Okay. Uh...

Okay. I tried that. It didn't work.

DE'I DUS NAS BDAG GIS KHYAD PA'I RGYUR NANG ZHES PA'I RGYUR NANG ZHES PA'I RGYUR NANG So now I have given you a brief account of the Southern Lineage. That's Pabongka. We're almost out of the lineages, okay?

But we'll be gone by the time we get... DGE BAR RNAM BDAG GIS GYIG CHAGS TSUL DU YOD PA LAS KHYEN PAR BRDZED DGOS If you want to know more details, you can look into the, what do they call it? Lagu.

It's called Lagu. Lagu means a whole genre of literature devoted to tracing back lineages. And there are hundreds of those books.

Pabongka Rinpoche was very careful to document all his lagus. Okay, we're on to the central lineage. Central Tibetan.

,GZHAN LA NGUL RGYUD NI, central lineage of which text? The Great Fifth Dalai Lama's Word of Gentle Voice. ,GZHAN LA NGUL RGYUD NI, ,GZHAN LA NGUL RGYUD NI, ,KUN ZIN SNGAGS PA CHEN PO'I, ,THRE CHEN CHEN PO'I RGYAL TSO LA BRTZAL, The Great Fifth Dalai Lama granted it to Chenpo Gyatso.

,DE NAS RIM RGYUD NAS, ,THRE CHEN RGYUD NAS, ,GZHAN LA NGUL RGYUD NI, ,GZHAN LA NGUL RGYUD NAS, Then he skips the whole lineage. He's like, okay, then it came down. To Losang Khundrup.

And then J. Losang Jimba heard it from him. And then he just stops.

You're supposed to understand that that's the lineage. If you want to see the whole lineage, you can check his. It's in the ACIP database.

,GNUR LA MARTI NI, So now he's going to talk a little bit about the lineage of GNUR LA MARTI. GNUR LA MARTI is very, very beautiful. I think it was the first lamrim that I studied.

GNUR LA means quick path. MARTI means, it's a beautiful word. We explained it before.

MAR means crimson. CI means instruction. And what it means is the Lama goes very carefully through the lamrim as though he were a physician teaching student physicians by stripping the skin off of a corpse and showing, this is the spleen, this is the liver.

Look how clean it is. Oh, kidney. And then he goes through all the organs and says, this is that, and this is that.

So it's considered a more personal and direct transmission of the lamrim. And that's called a dissection, a dissection presentation of the lamrim. MARTI ,KUN ZIG PEN CHEN LO SANG YOD SHING NAS, ,KA TZAM GRUB NAS, So that was composed by the second Penchen Lama.

His Holiness the second Penchen Lama, Lo Sang Yod Shing. He lived 1663 to 1737. ,KA TZAM GRUB NAS, He completed the text.

Then something strange happened. You ready? ,CI RGYUN ZHUG GAN MA CHUNG, ,CI RGYUN ZHUG GAN MA CHUNG, CI means instruction.

RGYUN means the stream or the lineage. ZHUG means to request. GAN means person who does something.

ZHUG GAN means request thorough. MA CHUNG Nobody asked him. Okay.

There's a very famous incident in Lord Buddha's life. It's called the great mistake. In scripture it's called the great mistake.

So the Lord Buddha's direct disciples didn't ask him to stay. They just forgot. They took him for granted or something like that.

And they didn't ask him to stay. And then he passed away. So nobody thought to ask him for the transmission.

They just figured, oh, he's going to be around. ,KHUN DRE, Then he got older. ,CHEN GYI MI SIG PAR, Then his eyes got bad.

,LUNG ZHOG DEB RE NYID, Then when he had to give a... What do you call it? He had to give an oral transmission of something.

Somebody had to go... They didn't have Xerox machines, okay? Somebody would go and get a huge piece of paper and write it in big letters like that.

That's why the Kangyur are so big, okay? Because people didn't have eyeglasses. There was no such thing as eyeglasses.

So they just carved them really big so anybody could read them, okay? So they would write out in huge letters and he would be like... ,YI RGYEN SHIN DU CHEN PO CHE GYI BUGAPA, ,GYUB CHO LO SANG NAM GAL, Then this yogi named Lo Sang Nam Gal, he was in retreat and he was studying that Lam Rim.

He was practicing that Lam Rim. Then he suddenly had this... What do you call?

Meditative experience that he realized that no one had asked. He's not a big monk. He's not close to the Penchen Lama.

He was just some guy out in a retreat cabin. But then he suddenly realized that nobody back at the monastery had asked for the transmission, okay? ,SIG NE DE CHI GYIN GZHU MA THUB PA NI, ,JI RJE GZHU GYEN GZHAN GONG NI, ,GDOG RJE GYIN NI, Then he thought, oh, this would be a great loss if no one asked for the oral transmission.

So he packed up all his stuff. You can just see Will Duncan or somebody packing it. They're like, oh God, they forgot to ask for the transmission.

Then he's like packing up all his stuff. He rushes off to Tashi Lhumbo Monastery, which is where the Penchen Lamas were, the seat of the Penchen Lamas. ,DRON YOD RGYUN NAS, ,LHAG RAB GSUM BUM CI DANG, ,KHYAB PA DU MYUR LAM DI, ,CI ZHIG SNANG DGOS ZHUG PA, So he met with the Dron Yod.

Dron Yod is like... I was a Dron Yod. I was Rinpoche's Dron Yod.

Dron Yod means... Technically it means the... What do you call it?

Chamberlain? Lord Chamberlain. Is that right?

The guy who takes care of the... Not a chambermaid. You look it up in a dictionary.

Chamberlain means like the main servant of a big person and takes care of the house and buys the groceries. But the Chamberlain also decides who gets to see the Lama. It's a very high position in Seramay.

It's like the third highest position in the monastery or something for the time that that person is Abbot. So if they have a naughty Chamberlain the whole monastery suffers. Okay, anyway.

,RGYUN NAS, ,LHAG RAB GSUM BUM CI, Then he said, at best I would appreciate if you would grant me permission to meet the Lama and hear from him the oral transmission of all his works. It's like 20 volumes or something. Which is not weird in Tibet.

It's kind of normal to say, can I have a transmission of everything you ever wrote? And then the Lama sits down and starts to read his books from the beginning to the end, out loud. And then that transmission continues.

There are still transmissions of the Kangyur and Tengyur. People sit down for three months and read the Tengyur out loud to their students. And then they pass on the oral blessing of the lineage.

If he doesn't have time for that, could I at least have the Lam Rim? Because nobody thought to ask him. ,DGOS ZHUGS PA, ,GOM PA DRAG KYANG, But he was just a DRAG KYANG.

We said last night, right? DRAG PA DRAG KYANG. Say DRAG PA.

DRAG KYANG. DRAG means a fence, okay? Nowadays in colloquial it's RA.

But it means an inmate of an enclosure. That came to be the word for monk. They don't say GELONG or anything.

They say DRAG PA. A person who lives in a walled monastery. DRAG PA DRAG KYANG.

But he was just a DRAG PA DRAG KYANG, simple monk. And ZHUGS KYOD CHE BA, and the thing he was asking for was rather major. CHEN MI ZEL BA, and the lama's eyes were not very good.

Then DUN YER, the chamberlain was you know, HA LE. He was amazed that this bum monk would want to bother the high lama with such a request. GYUR ZHIG MANG PO DANG, Then he was like, oh, you know, he's kind of busy today and next week.

He made the chamberlain's excuses for the lama. Why the lama couldn't meet somebody. LAR LOG NAS PEP.

So he went back to his retreat cabin. YAN THUG GI MA SRED PA. But then he was sitting there and he couldn't stand it.

He thought, I got to try again. And he packed up his stuff, came back to DRAG ZHIG MANG PO, asked again. This happened three times.

Three seems to be the magic number. DUN YER GYI DAG GSUM MA CHE BA, U THUG TE. Then the DUN YER wouldn't accept the request.

U THUG TE. Then the monk got a little hot. The guy, the Will Duncan guy.

KHYER RANG LA CHOS NANG BA ZHUG MA SO. I'm not asking you for teaching. I'm asking the lama for teaching.

NYEN SEMS DIG PEN CIG RUNG PO CHENG NYEN DUG GYUR BA ZHIG RDZOD. At least you could ask him. Just ask him.

I'm not asking you for teaching. I'm asking him. Just convey my request.

KHONG CHOD ZHIN DU. Then the chamberlain got mad. Then he said, Okay, all right.

I'll go ask him. You'll see what will happen. He went to the penchant lama.

He said, You know, there's this crazy monk. He says, Nobody asked you for the transmission. He says, Let him in right now.

Okay? Let him in right now. Then suddenly his eyes got better.

He gave the whole transmission, of everything, to Maitreya. My lama, meaning Jambalundru, Pabongka Rinpoche's lama. He said he used to tell this story over and over.

Like he never got tired of telling this story. RUNG KYANG RANG RES RGYUD PAR LO MA LO SANG NAM GYEL YONG DRAG SU MA ZHUG But somehow that single old crazy lama got left out of the traditional list of people in the lineage. RUNG KYANG RANG RES RGYUD PAR BYED NA'I DBANG BYAMS PA NAS RIM RGYUN ZHUG GYOR GCOD GAL SANGS DRIN GYUR DU ZAL BA DANG YIN Then he says, If you want to know the complete lineage for this penchant lama's lam rim, you can refer to GYOR GCOD GAL SANGS DRIN GYUR.

Okay? We should do that someday. Okay?

The GYOR GCOD. I mean, maybe after the lam rim. Okay?

It's a very beautiful practice. Ken Rinpoche taught us that first, before any tantra. And GYOR GCOD means those steps that we did before the meditation.

Like, you've got LHAG RGYAM, right? It's the steps you do before the meditation. But it's really long.

And it's really beautiful. So that's where you might offer the, what do you call? The bathing house or something like that.

Like, people bathe Krishna, right? All the time and stuff like that. It's fun.

Actually, he'll go through the GYOR GCOD when we start the text. He'll go through it pretty detailed. But it's called GAL SANGS DRIN GYUR.

Okay? So GAL SANGS means those who have GAL. Sorry.

Yeah. Those who have good fortune. And then DRIN GYUR means a necklace.

Why are they called a necklace? Because you recite it. And it's beautiful.

Okay? It's in your throat. Okay?

Throat chakra. DRIN GYUR. So if you want to see the Holy Nature, check the end of that GYOR GCOD text.

DE DAG NI BRDZE PA PO'I PHYIR BA RAG DU TZAM ZHUGS PA YIN ZHING I have completed the transmission of the greatness of the teacher. You know? The greatness of the sources of what you're going to study.

Then technically we should go over the Khen Rinpoche a little bit. Wait. Hot chocolate.

So I guess Trijang Rinpoche, I mean, Trijang Rinpoche was born in 1901. Second Lama from the left. Born in 1901.

Then you know his story because you know this Lama. Okay? He was an incarnated Lama.

He was already a Drukul. He was already recognized as... Trijang means holder of the throne.

So he was already very... He was born famous. And then he could have relaxed his whole life.

He was wealthy. They had a big house. You know?

From Ganden Monastery. He could have just relaxed his whole life. But then he became a disciple of Pabongka Rinpoche.

And then at the age of 20 he entered this teaching. And then his life changed. Rather than becoming sort of a spoiled...

The incarnated Lamas get a little spoiled. Like you're six years old and you go to your chamberlain, your junior, and you say, I want candy. And then I...

Lama, not good enough candy. I'm Lama. You are my student.

I want candy. And then they get cavities and stuff like that. So...

But he broke out of that mold and then he spent much of his life preparing this Lam Rim for you. And again, it's probably the most beautiful book ever written in Tibet, maybe. It's that rare combination of Shakespearean beauty in the composition and the meaning is the highest meaning of all.

So he's got that both. He's got both. Then he was selected as one of the two tutors of the present-day Lama.

So there's Khyabje Ling Rinpoche and Khyabje Thichar Rinpoche. Junior and senior doesn't really mean much. I never figured out why they call them junior and senior.

I don't think there's any name in Tibetan for them. They're just both called the yong dzin. And yong dzin means tutor.

And then it was a very hard time in Tibet. You know, 1951. Basically, there was a huge war in China that went on for many decades.

First it was the imperial forces against the Sun Yat-sen's forces and then the democratic forces. Then it turned into a fight between the communists and the nationalists. And the nationalists ran away to Taiwan with all the gold of the country, and that's another story.

And then the communists took power. Then suddenly there's World War II, Japanese attack. They kill a million Chinese people in Nanking in a couple of weeks.

They rape every woman in the city. So then there's this big war with Japan. And then Japan is ousted.

And then the communists go back to fighting with the nationalists. They basically had many years, decades of war. And then at the end of that process, the communists won.

And then suddenly you have, I think, three major armies don't have anything to do. So Mao Zedong was nervous and he sent them to Tibet. He said, let's take Tibet.

Kind of to keep them out of trouble. So then they started encroaching on Tibet. 1951, first casualties.

First people were killed. And then it took eight years to cross the country. And 1959, March 10th, then Tibet was lost.

And the Dalai Lama... There was a rumor that the Dalai Lama was going to be kidnapped and killed. He was invited to a theatrical performance on March 9th or something like that by the local Chinese general.

So then there was a lot of fear that he might be murdered. So the population of Lhasa went out of the city and surrounded his residence. Like, I don't know, 50,000 people.

Then they just bombed him. So they gave up their lives. Then during the bombing, he dressed up as a...

He took off his robes and dressed up as a peasant and then escaped. So they had a small party. And then that's a whole adventure story.

They had a small party on horses and weird sandstorms came. Three armies couldn't catch them. And they got out.

And then Thich Nhat Hanh came out with him. So it was a very hard time because these are not politicians. They don't know anything.

They have flintlocks in the basement of the papala. Somebody's down looking for flintlocks. They put them on...

What do you call it? Gazelle horns? Flintlocks.

You take two gazelle horns and you put your flintlock on it. You've got to set up one horn and you've got to set up the other horn. So you put an iron ball in the front and you pull that thing and it goes poof.

It was like a joke. It was very stressful, very difficult times. And then they came out and they were just refugees.

And so Thich Nhat Hanh had to live as a refugee. And then slowly they had the courage to rebuild their monasteries. So for Sarah...

Sarah had close to 10,000 monks. 100 made it out. 100 survived.

So he had a very hard life. And then he passed away in 1981. Then Khenpo Rinpoche was his close disciple.

I don't know if I can tell so much. Basically he lived in the refugee camps. He finished his geshe in Tibet, I think 1954 or 1955.

And then he finished his tantric studies in 1959. And he was to become the head of the tantric... one of the leaders of the tantric college.

Which means he would be next in line for the throne of Tsongkhapa. Then he said, so he said, I was next in line for the throne of Tsongkhapa. I was in my bathroom, you know, like washing.

I was drying my face and the first bomb came down on the monastery. And then he was like... He said, I just turned around and ran.

And he ran to this mountain. And then he looked around and he said, everybody's like, we got to go to India. We got to try to make it to India.

And they all said, okay, what do you got? You got any money? You got any food?

And he's like, I got a towel. And they walked over the Himalayas. Quite close to Mount Everest, okay.

Barefoot. I mean, their shoes fell apart within a week, you know. And most people died.

So he made it. His eyes were always bad. He was blinded by the snow.

Then His Holiness asked him to write textbooks for the... He asked him to organize schools for the refugee children. A lot of orphans, mostly orphans.

So he spent 12 years writing textbooks. And he was the principal of the school, I think in Missouri. And then he taught a whole generation of Tibetans.

There's a whole generation of Tibetan young people who are now in their, what, 50s, who are the cream of Tibetan society. And they're all his students. It's very beautiful.

Then he was invited to America. His Holiness sent him to America to help teach here. And then he taught for 32 years without taking money.

He taught every day. Anyway, that's all I can do. Anyway, you're getting the lineage from that.

Okay. ,BLA LOB SANGS PA, ,BRAL BA MED PA, ,RGYAS PA BYAS NA, ,BLA MA YONGS SU MED PA BYAS, ,GSUNG GI LA RGYUR RNAM DANG, ,BUR NI NYID ZHUGS PA LTAR BYAS DGOS BYAS, So Pabongka Rinpoche's teacher used to tell him, if you give the Lam Rim and you really have some time, like, I don't know what, 30 years, you should read Yongsen Yeshe Gyeltsen's biography. So somebody wrote a biography of all the Lamas of the Lam Rim.

And it's very, very beautiful. And parts of it have been translated. I don't think the whole thing is done.

But it's really, really sexy and beautiful. It's well written. Somebody should translate the whole thing.

,LA RGYUR RNAM DANG, So he said, ,DE LTAR BDAG LAM BYAS MA THUB KYANG, We couldn't go through that two-volume biography today. ,SPE LUS, This is beautiful. They don't say buy a scripture in Tibetan.

You're not allowed to say, ,GNOD, You don't say, ,SPE BYA GNOD, I need to buy a book. You have to ransom it. It's called, See, it says, ,SPE LUS, LUS means to ransom.

I'll give you $30 if you'll release the book to me. You see, I mean like that. They don't conceptualize it as purchasing.

It's like releasing the power of a thing. It's a nice word. ,RGYUN DU LAG TE, You should take it home.

You should read it. ,RNAM THAG RE RE GYUG DU'ANG, Then at the... I don't know what's wrong today.

At the end of each lama's biography, you should recite the following verse. He puts a beautiful verse. This is a very famous verse.

We have to say it every two weeks. What do you call it? At Sojong.

Let's do it together. Are you ready? ,DE BZHIN ZHES PA, ,SKYE DGU, ,CIN DAG, ,BA DANG, ,KHOR DANG, ,KU TSE, ,TSE DANG, ,ZHIN GAM DANG, ,KYE GYI, ,ZEN CHOG, ,ZAM BO, ,CIN DAG WANG, ,DEN DAG, ,KHOR DANG, ,DA SOG, ,GYU RANG ZHOG, Wait.

Oh, lama, may I come to have an angel's body like yours. May I be surrounded by beautiful disciples as yours. May I live as you live.

And may I come to a paradise like yours. May I have an enlightened angel's body like yours. And may I be nothing else than that.

Something like that. Okay? Where?

Okay, we finished. All right. Then next time we go into, we start the Lam Rim.

As if that were not. Okay. I have a few concluding remarks and then I give it over to Rebecca.

So there are, a lot of us, I don't know, we have periods in our life, sometimes they are months long, sometimes they are hours long, sometimes they are many years, decades long, when we feel like we don't have energy. And we don't have enough energy to do the things we want. And it's especially discouraging if you've had energy before.

You know, if you go from a state of having energy and then suddenly you lose that energy. My mother, stepmother called me, she's 86 or something? And she's like, Mike, I had to cancel my trips for next month.

She's a travel agent, she still drags people around the world. And I'm like, oh yeah, why? And she said, I don't know, I just don't feel the energy like I used to.

I'm like, finally. So we all have this thing. And then it's very frustrating.

You want to do things, you want to get things done, you can't do your projects, you can't get things done. And it's very frustrating. So can it be reversed?

Yes. Why? Because it's coming from you.

It's like the pen. So your lack of energy is coming from you. Which just means you need to plant the seeds and then you would just have limitless energy.

Amitayus. So it's good to learn. And I'm going to repeat four practices that we have learned to plant the seeds.

In order that the food practice works, and the flush practice works, and the alignment practice works, and the time management works. None of those work by themselves. They are empty shells until they are given their power.

I like to think of them as staplers without staples. Like they look good, they cost money, and they don't do anything. You got to load them.

So those practices will work for you. All of them. And I'm going to do them too.

And the yoga. It will work for you, but you got to load it. You got to put the staples in.

So I see that we did four practices in this class to make those practices work. The first was trying to visualize the life energy inside of us, like tree sap of liquid glass, and offering it to other people. The second was, I think probably the most important, which is to ask your teacher for life.

And then practice watching as the life comes into you from them. I particularly enjoy sitting on top of the atmosphere with my teacher. Actually, we're usually standing, but I see which feels more comfortable.

I like to have the bottom of my feet on the atmosphere. Then looking down and taking care of everybody. And not just humans, but other creatures.

I think the meditation on the present moment is one of the most important things you can do to preserve your energy and not have it leak out. Maybe half of your energy... Maybe as you get older, one of the main reasons you lose energy is that your worries increase, your responsibilities increase, you have more problems to think about, now you have kids to think about, college tuitions to think about, stuff you didn't have to think about earlier.

The exercise of expectation and worry, that dual exercise, expectations and worry, drains your energy, totally drains your energy. So if you can learn to bring your mind as often as possible to the present moment, then you'll be okay. I was at the fire.

It was six and a half hours sitting there. It was hot. I was tired.

I'm still tired from Eastern Europe or Paris or Argentina. I don't remember which one. Then I thought, let me just be here.

I thought, let's see what happens. I'll just be here. I'll just enjoy what's here.

I won't think about my bed and I won't think about Bulgaria. I'll just be here and see how it works. It was beautiful.

I didn't feel tired at all. The whole time I didn't feel tired. So I think maybe try that.

When you feel tired, try to be in the present moment. Maybe the reason you're losing energy is that you're not living in the present moment. Where does that put planning?

Do it in the present moment. But we'll talk about that. The present moment meditation is criticized by the first Panchen Lama.

He says, no content, no content. It's just a tool. It's just a tool.

Staying in the present moment is very relaxing. It's very, what do you call it? For me, I feel relief to be in the present moment.

To not have to worry about yesterday. To have someone give me permission not to think about yesterday or next week. I always get this wave of relief when they say, okay, are the two walls up?

Yes. Okay, now be here. Surrender into the moment.

And I'm like, you know, this is nice. Just to be here is nice. I don't have to think about the homeworks for the next class, or the money that we owe, the retreat, three-year retreat, and the debt.

So I can just be here in the present moment. So that's a relief. But in and of itself, there's no content.

It's just a mode. It's a way of feeling. And by itself, it doesn't have great karmic implications.

You have to give life to other people. You can't just park in the present moment because then one day that present moment will become the day of your death. And then there's no meaning to it.

So surrender to the present moment and then go to the meditation on either receiving life or giving life. Last thing. I think, and I'm just repeating, the process of making decisions or facing decisions in your life drains your energy totally.

You know what I mean? If you look at why you're tired at any given time, it's very often that you're faced with choices and you feel overwhelmed by them. Or you feel like you can't make a decision.

Like, should I do this or should I do that? And your mind, under the influence of your two side channels, constantly presents yourself with decisions and they are unnecessary. The hours and days and years of your life expended worrying about what to do are and always have been completely unnecessary.

No functional use to them. There are no benefit. They have no result.

They don't do anything. It's like as if you came to me and you said, I'm really tired, Geshe-la. And I say, why?

And you say, I have to get up at 2 a.m. every morning. And I say, why? And they say, I have to go flush the toilet.

I'm like, why? And you say, actually I have to flush it every minute from 2 a.m. to 6 a.m. And I'm like, do you have some medical problem? And they're like, no, no, I just, I have to flush the toilet every minute from 2 a.m. to 6 a.m. And I'm like, and you feel tired? And they say, yeah, I feel really tired. And I'm, no, your life is that. I'm trying to tell you your life is that.

All those decisions you're trying to make, all the wrinkles on your face, all the times you can't go to bed. And I say, why are you flushing the toilet from 2 a.m.? And they say, I don't know. But I'm sure it makes me tired.

Can you give me a meditation or something? And I'm like, yeah, why don't you stop flushing the toilet? It doesn't do anything.

It doesn't have any function. It's just a waste. There's no purpose.

It doesn't work. It's like, just get up at 2 a.m. and flush the toilet for four hours. Every morning.

And then you feel tired. Of course you feel tired. Just plant seeds and relax.

Just plant seeds and relax. All crises in your life, all challenges in your life, all problems in your life, all problem people in your life, which is the main kind of problem, right? It's people.

Then, whatever you don't like about them, just stop doing it yourself to other people. And that plants a seed. Whatever you want in your boyfriend, start doing it to somebody at work.

Except for the kisses and other stuff. Somebody said, I was in Oslo. Somebody said, Geshe-la, what's the economic seed for Kölsch?

And I said, excuse me? He said, Kölsch. I thought he said kids.

And I was like, excuse me? And he said, kisses? How can I get more kisses?

He said, should I go to the Grand Hotel in Oslo and kiss everybody? And I'm like, no, no. You don't have to do that.

Just be friendly to everybody. Be more friendly to everybody. Then your husband will be more affectionate.

You see what I mean? So whatever you want, just do it for other people. Plant the seed and then relax.

Next thing he'll be coming to me and complaining that he's too passionate. That's my life every other year. Plant the seed and relax.

Just plant the seed and relax. All that worry is... Try to find the truth of that.

Next time you're worried, just try to think, what seed should I plant? If you think about a single other person's needs for 30 seconds, the worry will break. The whole worry about your life will break.

And you cannot resolve the worry until you help somebody else. It's not possible. The things you want can only come from other people.

You can't get anything by worrying. It's not going to happen. It doesn't work.

The only way to get anything is to do it for other people. And luckily, seeds grow. So you only have to be a little nice to other people.

And then your husband will be very passionate. Because the seed for the pine tree is half a gram and the pine tree is 200 tons. And that's the way it is.

Which is good luck. You just have to be a little nice to somebody and then you'll be very whatever. Okay.

So to me, that's the real energy saver. Stop worrying. Stop making decisions.

Stop struggling. Do something for others that you want to get yourself. And then your whole life is just relaxed.

During the time that it takes a watermelon to come up out of the ground, you don't have to do much. You just do some little maintenance, right? And you put some bird poop on it sometimes or something.

And then you just relax. And the thing comes up. And then you eat it.

And then you spit the other seeds out and you plant them and then you relax again. Okay. You do a...

What do you call it? Reinvest your seeds. All right.

Again, I'd really like to encourage you to teach classes together. Try to hook up with somebody else. You still have another meal, I think.

Right? One more meal? So, you know, wander around the cafeteria looking aimless and maybe somebody will offer to take you to Lake Tahoe.

Okay. I want you to hook up with one other person in a romantic location and teach this class together. You might want to start with the first Lamrim class, which is the meditation poster.

And that's very sexy for bringing people in. You know, you roll out this big poster. If you don't know about it, you can check it online.

All of these courses will be online. You can review from the homework masters. They are...

What do you call it? They are actually meant as a class notes. So, if you just study the homework masters before you teach each class, then those are the important points that you shouldn't miss.

You may not have ten days to give this course. You may have to give it in two days. You are welcome to chop out whatever attracts you.

Okay? You're welcome to rewrite it. You can have the Word files.

We'll give you the Word files for the homeworks. You can reduce it to a two-day course or a one-day course or a half of a yoga class course. Okay?

And you're welcome to steal everything. And I don't care. There's no copyright on 20,000 pages of translations that we've done so far.

You're welcome to steal it. Just don't corrupt it. That's all I care about.

Don't sprinkle it with weird stuff. Try to stick to the essence of it. Which doesn't mean you can't present it in your own way.